got a female on the FL she's seen a m she's looking over and she can't see anything she did right in front of P 20s early 30s yeah he didn't even think about it you look at the signs you look at what's happening within a loved one how maybe they're changing um and sometimes you don't see it and that's and that's probably the biggest thing um sometimes you don't see what's happening around all the time he was so really anxious really stressed really you know distraught and then the next thing I know he'd gone missing and then Simon turned about the door and said you know what happened something that stuck in my mind with Simon was the fact that he turn around and he said it's about 33 minutes to get there he said I'll get you there in 20 and you know just St little things like that that that that sick in your mind and it's like we thought we were going to go through the and and say goodbye to us son um his calmness his sense of humor his professionalism just kept us calm you know I mean I was in a bad way but I didn't say myself trying to kill myself the the late doctor first said do you know why you're here and I didn't have a clue when Mom first told me what I'd done I said to her no I didn't I don't even remember leaving the door leing the house sometimes it's it's very very difficult to to to find the right help um but try that's all I say the last 13 months of being traumatic but he's now got his kids off he's had his boot off he's got a cast on and he's walking 4 to 6 weeks he six weeks love be cast off but he's he's determination is such that he's walked because he wanted to walk mhm in my other physio she said oh don't worry we'll get you walking you might not be running no marathons so I thought right I'm going to run a marathon it's and it's just little it's just little thing about that but as I said I can't say this enough we wouldn't be here if it wasn't for those officers so with us it if the team works it works well and luckily for us on that day it worked very very well and I think the these guys here who who don't get probably the thanks that they deserve for the job that they do um I just wanted them to know what what what they've done so for our family and probably countless other families um in probably what is a part of their job that people don't actually realize that they do you know they deserve to know that on that de of that incident when they feared the worst we got the best