and I would go to work and we would talk and we would consider and we would look at all my options and we would look at everything I'd been through all the fears all >> and when you say we we're talking about the voices in here >> and more or less I kind of bounce the ideas off of them and I feel what they feel and I feel what I feel and I listen to >> on June 25th 2024 in northwest Spokane, Washington, Alyssa Bradburn was taken into custody in connection with the death of Timothy Bradburn who had died as a result of a shooting inside their home. Spoiler details are in the video description and the full results of all charges in the case are laid out at the end of the video. >> He said you've grown up in that house all your life. Okay. Who's all who all lives there? >> Just me and my dad has a condo now in Hawaii. So he spends a lot of time there instead. >> Okay. So tell me tell me about this condo. is how long has he had it? >> A year maybe. I'm not totally sure. >> Okay. >> Not terribly long, but around a year maybe. I've never seen it myself. The address should be in the house. There was an envelope along with the documentation for his will. It should be on the bookshelf next to the TV in the front room that would say show the address of it. Exactly. >> Okay. Um, so you've never been down there? >> No. Okay. >> I've never been anywhere but Spokane. Seldom. I went to Oregon once to buy my car when I was very, very young. We went to California one time. I think it was that. It was >> Disney World. I don't really remember it. >> You don't really remember it. >> Okay. What part of Oregon did you go to? Was that recent? >> That was over 5 years ago. >> Over five years ago. >> Yeah. >> We went to look at Baja. I don't remember which one exactly. >> Did you buy it? >> Not that one. Not that one. >> Yeah, we ended up I ended up buying one from Yakma. >> Yaka. Okay. And it's a Baja. >> It was We sold it now. >> Okay. Do you have a car now? >> I do. >> What kind of car do you have? >> Subaru. >> Subaru. >> Okay. >> Outback. >> How do you like it? >> It's not quite like the Baja. >> Not quite like the Baja, >> but it's okay. >> Okay. All right. And what's what's your father's name? >> Timothy. Timothy Bradford. Okay. So, you said he now has his condo down in Hawaii, so he spends a lot of time there. >> Okay. Um, how long has he been in Hawaii? >> Several months now. >> Several months. >> Yeah. Comes back once in a while now. >> Comes back once in a while. >> Yeah. >> Right. So, while he's gone, who's all living at the house? >> Just me and my dogs. >> Just you and your dogs. >> Do you know if they're okay? >> I believe they are. I believe they are. >> Put them in the laundry room so they wouldn't they wouldn't have to. >> You put them in the laundry room. >> Yeah. >> Okay. Here's some good news, girl. We like dogs and they're not part of the problem, so they'll take care of them. Okay. >> Okay. Yep. >> What What kind of dogs are they? >> They're all Chihuahua mixes. Chihuahua mixes. >> What are their What are their names? >> Hi. He's the white one. He's a >> What is it? >> He's a He's a Chihuahua. My mom used to think he was lab mix. I don't know about that, though. But Huaway is He's my oldest dog. >> Hi. >> Hua. >> Hui. >> Hua. >> Okay. >> I've had him for nearly eight years now. >> And he's he's a good boy. >> Wait, did you say Chihuahua and lab? I don't know if it was lap though. It might have been >> I'm just trying to get the visual on. >> He's about a 15 to 16 pound dog. >> That's a good size for a Chihuahua. >> 16 lbs. >> Chihuahua lab. You just don't hear that one every day. >> Yeah. >> And there's two dogs. >> VOA. I just got him a couple weeks ago. Me and Hu have been struggling. He's very nervous, anxious, and satisfied. How have you been struggling? >> He beats on the dogs or he beats on. We used to have toy poodle on Chihuahua around the time my mom died of cancer. My dad beat it so bad. He never quite recovered. Started having seizures and we had to put him down. He was a smart boy. He learned how to not I'd be around my dad and not make him upset. >> And I sleep in the bedroom with him and I lock the door, the dog, the gun and ring so that if he comes at me, I can defend myself. He hasn't met Boja yet. So, sweet. I think he's going to be so much better now. [snorts] But it hurts some. >> You're okay. >> I could He had a baby gun by the back door and he'll shoot at him sometimes. If I try to defend the dogs, I don't love him. [snorts] It's dangerous for me. Thank you for telling me that it must have been tough. >> People always think you should get a bigger gun. So big. >> [snorts] >> and look at me. I couldn't say and then you forget. It's like all those things you did and it's like it didn't even [laughter] be okay. [laughter] >> [snorts] >> So you mentioned him hurting the dogs and you never [laughter] quite hurt me for a long time. He raped me when I was a baby girl. I blocked up the memory for so long, but I've always had problems with loving people. [snorts] I went with him best. >> [snorts] >> How old were you when that leap happened? >> I'm not sure exactly. I think three or four maybe. [snorts] I don't know. They're still so vague. Nothing. I don't have any concrete memories still. When I went to the hypnotist, [snorts] I was screaming and I couldn't. [laughter] >> Did you say you've always had problems with living people? >> Is [snorts] that what you said? >> No. >> Loving. >> Loving. Okay. I'm sorry. [snorts] Oh, >> you're fine. You're fine. That makes more sense. You said you had trouble with living people. I was like, what people do you do well with then? [snorts] >> I don't really have >> I don't have people in my life. Is hard for me to be around them. >> Why is that? [snorts] >> Because I just don't know what to do to keep them from hating me. I don't know. I don't know what to do and so it's easier just to be around me. >> Makes sense. So [snorts] when was >> when was the last time your dad hurt you? [snorts] >> It's been a long time. I got very good. >> I got very good at pretending to be very happy all the time. >> Okay. >> And so as such he doesn't hurt me anymore. >> Okay. and I figure out exactly what it is that ticks him every single time. >> Tell me about that. >> He has very particular ticks in his life. My dad does. >> Cannot touch his stuff. Uh you cannot be upset at any given time in front of him regardless of what has something to do with him or not. I cannot express myself or talk about my life or he nitpicks and pulls everything apart. So so long as I great rock him and so long as I am always pleasant and happy and kind, he is a good person to me. >> Okay, >> I have lived alone with him for 5 years now and I've gotten very good at it to the point that I don't know what emotions are my own anymore. >> Okay, >> but I'm constantly terrified of him coming and killing me. >> Tell me about that. [snorts] >> I have recurring dreams of someone breaking into my house, trying to kill me. >> [snorts] [snorts] >> Is that those dreams? Is that someone or is that specifically? >> It's not specifically my dad, per se. No. >> Okay. >> It's just someone. But I was scared of him. I He wasn't angry at me this time. >> He wasn't. [snorts] >> But I don't think I would have been able if he was. >> Tell me about that. [snorts] >> I always freeze up whenever he's angry and I can't do anything. [snorts] Not long after my mom died to the hypnotist. [snorts] [laughter] I got nothing concrete. But I [snorts] came home and I said I thought maybe one of my brother's [clears throat] friends had raped me. [snorts] He said he didn't think anyone raped me. But months later he came into my room the other night [snorts] in a rage screaming and he had traced everyone raped me. He was so angry. He said he would. And so I just huddled there on the floor [snorts] and I always screamed at us just praying for it to end. >> How long ago was that? >> This was years ago. >> Years ago. >> I said I got very very good at being everything he needed me to be. [snorts] >> You said when your mom had passed away. How long ago did she pass away? about 5 years ago. She died of cancer. >> I'm sorry to hear that. >> I had no love for her either. >> You didn't have any love for her either. >> Okay. So, you've been living there at the house with your dad for about 5 years. >> I've been living in that house for all 31 years. >> All 31. The last 5 years you've just been living with you and your dad, right? Okay. >> Yeah. So tell me tell me about the him abusing the dogs or hurting the dogs. He has a short temper when it comes to animals. He doesn't like them much. He'll kick at them. He'll scream at them, but they get too close. And I don't know why he would shoot them in the backyard. I saw it once. at home. That BB gun's always by the back door. >> He shoots out in the backyard. The BB gun. >> I saw it for myself one time. >> When was the last time you saw that? >> Was quite a while ago. He didn't do it in front of me again. >> Like a year, couple years. >> Smile on his face. [snorts] >> A year. Two years maybe. Time is very hard for me. I apologize. >> No, that's okay. I appreciate you being honest with me. >> That's kind of an especially big deal considering how close you are with the animals. They're kind of your people, right? >> There I had this every little bit from you emotionally. I never heard it, but I felt so bad because it's like I couldn't connect with him. It's like at some point you could just be gone. Just be gone. And so I have to be okay with that. Because I always have to be okay. My dad [snorts] didn't. [clears throat] [snorts] >> Can I ask you a small favor? I have old man ears. >> Mhm. I'll try to speak louder. Thank you. Cuz here's the deal. I I really want to hear what you're saying and so I want to make sure I hear it accurately. Like when I when I heard earlier I thought you didn't get along with dead people and I was like that's not right. So that's why I want to make sure and get it accurate. >> That's true. [snorts] [snorts] >> So it's been a it's been a little it's been some time since he served the dogs. >> Yes, it has. >> Okay. It's been some time. >> Okay. So, he said he's been in Hawaii for >> a very long time. >> A very long time. >> Um, [clears throat] if you want to know the exact dates, you could probably look up the flights, but that seems like a lot of work. I cannot remember the exact day he went over there anymore, but it was quite a while ago. >> Quite a while ago. Okay. [snorts] So, while he's been in Hawaii, do you have you been communicating with him while he's been gone? Phone calls or messages? >> We do. We do call. He gets he gets very anxious when I don't call after a while. So, I do have to keep up with constant calls. >> Okay. [snorts] >> Do you guys text message or emails or anything? >> No, not this much. I emailed him a picture of my dogs. >> Okay. You wanted to see Bojan. He gave me permission to get another dog. >> Okay. What's What's your email address? >> V is in Victor. D is in dog. P A T H. The number seven at hotmail.com. And again, that's vdhotmail.com. >> Perfect. Okay. So, you kind of keep up up with calls to him. He said he gets anxious. Does he worry about you? >> He watches me on the cameras. >> He watches you on the cameras. >> Call me sometimes in the middle of the night when I get home. I work night shift >> at Amazon, which [snorts] I like because it limits our proximity when he is home. I can just be awake at night and then I keep Va and I keep I keep Hugh baby in my bedroom with me. [snorts] >> Okay. during the day so he doesn't have much access to him. >> Okay. >> I think during the night version he huh he keeps quietly in the house. >> Mhm. [snorts] How long have you been working at Amazon? >> Two years now. >> Two years. >> Uh going on threeish perhaps. >> Okay. What do you do there? >> A variety of things I suppose. Primarily I'm a stower. I put um items in the in the robots and that's what I take care of primarily. >> Okay. [snorts] Robots. That sounds kind of cool. >> Very neat. It's very zen. I can kind of zone out in there and I can work through things and I can cry or do anything else. People don't bother me. I don't have to talk to people. >> That's That makes it nice. >> It is. >> Okay. So, when when was the last time you think you talked to him on the phone? >> Today. [snorts] >> Today. Okay. Yep. >> About what time? >> Um, not quite 10:00. Maybe it was around 10:00. Should be in the >> 1000 p.m. >> At around there, I think maybe the night flight in. He does that so he can so I can go pick him up from the airport and bring him bring him home. >> Okay. So, tell me about that phone call. >> Nothing much. I told him I was sick and therefore I wouldn't be able to pick him up because I didn't didn't want to drive him home. I've been planning this for 4 days and I wrote it everything down. Well, longer than that, but I wrote it all in in my journal that I gave for the last 4 days. Everything. >> Okay. So, tell me tell me about you planning this for 4 days. Tell me all about that. I mainly just had a lot of thoughts and things, but I considered it. I considered all my options. I tried moving out once. I tried getting a house once. Even with 40,000 out of my Vanguard, I'd still be house broke. And I don't have any friends or anyone I trust. And it's really hard for me. And a lot of that's in my head. I had to have been another way. So, what what were all your options? >> Just the normal ones people might think of. Getting an apartment, moving in with a with a friend, maybe. I don't have any. None that that could help me in any way. I have no family that I talk to. just continually living the way I was for however long it took for my dad to die. Just letting him do whatever and eating everything on the inside. You've gotten pretty good at it, right? >> I had >> Yes. before tonight. Right. >> I did. >> Mhm. >> I didn't want >> Yes, [laughter] >> I didn't want >> Didn't know what else? You didn't know what else to do. >> Anyway, such a good boy. [gasps] I didn't wonder [laughter] maybe it helps me away so much. My favorite [laughter] and who be scared too. I didn't want it. >> You really love those dogs. >> I do. Alyssa, what what were you trying to get away from? [snorts] >> You're making a plan to make this end, right? What were you trying to end? [clears throat] >> Him. I didn't want to be hurt anymore. [gasps] I didn't My [laughter] just wanted us to be loved alone. I don't even know where I want. I just wanted them not hurt my babies. I'm really just I don't know who I am or what emotions are mine anymore. [laughter] I >> So tell me how you planned this. [snorts] >> I just I was going to shoot him in the front room when he came in through the door there. I was going to put the dogs in the back laundry room so the gun blasts wouldn't hurt them and so that they wouldn't they wouldn't do anything to crime scene so that [snorts] they were safe there. >> Mhm. >> And I put earplugs in. [snorts] That's kind of the gist of it. >> You put earplugs in. took my hearing from the gun blast. I thought it would be so much harder. He's always been so big, so so much smarter than me, so much bigger than me, so much he's an ex-Marine. [snorts] I He's always right. [snorts] I know how that goes. >> Okay. So, you said you had talked to him before around 10 10:00. >> So, >> and >> that might be a bit off, but I'm rather than he had a stop off at Seattle >> and [snorts] he called me real quick >> while he was at Seattle >> waiting for the flight to leave for Spokane. >> Okay. And you were supposed to pick him up? [snorts] >> I was supposed to. Yeah. >> Did you tell him when he called you that time that you were sick and weren't going to be able to pick him up? >> Yeah. I often get really bad migraines and nausea. [snorts] There are times when even medication they doesn't work for it. >> Okay. [snorts] How did he react when you told him? >> He was very concerned. >> Okay. What did [snorts] he say to you? >> He was just worried about me. >> Worried about you? >> Worried about me? >> All right. So, what did you do from that time it took him to to fly to Spokane after you got off the phone with him? >> I waited. I stayed with my doggos. Okay. >> I tried to be calm. Do you know how he got home? >> He got an Uber. I saw it on the cameras. I stayed in the laundry room cuz he was answering his phones in the end because that's where I was going to keep the dogs. >> When I saw him get home, I I closed the sliding door so they wouldn't be able to follow me. And I went to the front. Okay. >> And then what happened? He came in. He was very concerned and I shot him. I think it was twice in the chest. I don't remember that so much. He just he ever killed someone. It was almost this disre, you know. >> How did it feel? How did it make you feel after you shot [snorts] it? >> In that moment, I didn't really feel anything. I just needed to make sure. And so I did one more blast to the head just to make sure. Okay. >> I plan I'm so scared of him. You know, everyone talks about how 22s don't kill people. [laughter] >> Is that what kind of gun it was? 22. >> 22 mm. >> Okay. Hey, I just can't cover the fact I just I should have just held it in. >> It doesn't really sound like that was an option anymore. Right. >> You did the best you could for as long as you could. A long [ __ ] 5 years, right? [clears throat] >> Yeah. >> Yeah. [laughter] I tried so many things. [snorts and clears throat] Me and Satie, I gave her number. Her number should be custom. I tried getting a house with her. I lived in two apartments. I [laughter] worked 10our shifts though. Then I was sleeping for the rest of it. I [snorts] didn't want my dog. I was cooped up in a house all that time. >> So, you've been working your ass off to to try and get out of this situation. >> Yeah. I didn't know what to do. You can ask a question. >> Yeah. >> So, here's my conundrum. You're not an evil person, right? You're not a criminal. It makes sense to me how much you love your dogs because they're kind of your people, [clears throat] right? They're your the thing that you have. [sighs and gasps] But when I listen to you and I try and imagine what's going on and I just kind of try and take you in, this feels bigger than just the animals. Does that make sense? I feel like there's more there. Is Is that possible? >> Yes and no. >> Okay. I've never been underneath. Five years ago, my whole life fell away. I lost all that I was. I've been nobody this time. [snorts] So scared of him. And tell me tell me about that because my impression is that you are genuinely scared of your dad. >> Correct. You're worried about your dogs cuz you love them. Understandably. >> No, it was more me though. That's why I let him beat the dogs. >> What's that? >> That's why I would let him beat the dogs cuz it wasn't the dogs. It was me. >> And tell me about why why were you scared? >> He hurt me as a child. >> Okay. >> He raped me. >> Okay. And I don't remember a lot of the solid memories, but your body remembers. Subconsciously, it's always been there. And after the hypnotist, I'd have dreams of having [snorts] sex with him. And for the first little while, I >> was this an ongoing thing? You You mentioned when you were three or four, [snorts] but when you talk, it sounds like it's right now. Does that make sense? It sounds very fresh. [laughter and snorts] >> It hasn't happened. And that's what's so awful for me, you know? It makes no sense. Why did it stop? Did I [snorts] >> That's the confusing part for you. >> The hypnotist. It's like he didn't even want to try again. He didn't [snorts] honestly. I don't even know why I was so scared of my dad. >> And that's what I'm asking. >> I just >> cuz I can feel it, >> right? >> Yeah. And I didn't do it. It was ruining me, putting a hole in me, and I didn't want to be around people. And I was constantly My life is ruled by whether or not he will accept anyone thing. He will be okay with anyone thing. He would want anyone things. [snorts] I just exist to be whatever it is that makes him feel loved and good and big. I have no life. I I One of the things I was trying to do, get [snorts] back into my passions, which is writing, so that maybe I could write a novel and get away. You know, part of why I believe you is because there was a moment when you were talking about pleasing your dad and you actually switched characters. Does that make sense? It's almost like you became a different person because [clears throat] you were doing what you probably do when you talk to your dad, right? You went from a sad girl and you composed yourself and you start talking like this. Is that kind of what you do when you deal with him? Yes, I could do it intentionally, >> right? It's very practiced, right? >> It's muscles. I figured out how to emulate muscles. Whenever we're feeling emotions, it's different muscles that we feel in our body, >> right? >> And it's different things like that. And so when you trigger those muscles, it triggers it. Kind of like a fake it to make it, >> right? [clears throat] >> Change your personality. >> It's not authentic. Correct. And it's got to the point where with other people I do that all the time and I'm not sure if it's actually me and I don't want to lie anymore. >> Right? So when you fake it so much then you start losing yourself >> and I don't know who I am and I'll talk to I have a I I had a therapist. She thought I had multiple personality disorder. [snorts] I hear voices. >> Do do you still you think you still hear voices? They're very They aren't really there right at this moment, but they are there. I was touching them and then when I was alone in here, >> you were what? >> I was touching in with them when I was alone in here. They were helping me look things over. I was so horrified by what I saw with my dad. Him falling. I killed someone. >> Have you been diagnosed with any mental health issues? [snorts] See, I'm so good at it that I do it by instinct and people don't think anything's wrong with me. >> Do do what? [snorts] >> Do this, >> right? Is that normal? >> I'm so good at >> your emotions. >> Nobody I have a doctor I've had for nearly 20 years. She [snorts] doesn't think I have anything wrong with me. My psychiatrist doesn't think I have anything wrong with me. >> Well, you proved them wrong tonight. >> Yeah. [snorts] And I've asked people if there was any way I could get tested for autism or anything. And it's like they either know nothing about it or they just are like, "We don't do that. I'll see you next time." It's just like this is your godamn field of study. >> Mhm. >> You should be able to have names that point me in the right direction, not say just good luck with life, bro. Like >> Well, I think that's what that's what the detective is trying to figure out. Like how did we wind up here? Because I'm driving, >> right? Cuz you're not a criminal. >> And can I tell you something else? I deal with some crazy people. [snorts] I'm crazy. You actually don't. You're not crazy. >> Now you have some things you got to work through, right? >> I do. >> But you're not crazy. >> Okay. One reason I can't I have major problems with sex [snorts] and I can't remember any of the things to work on them because I'm so scared. I'm so scared. [snorts] I don't want him to know that I know. >> You don't want who to know? >> My dad or my brother? >> You don't want him to know what? >> That I know that they raped me. And was this when you were younger than 3 to four years old? >> Yes. I don't [clears throat] know why it ended. >> You think your brother raped you as well? [snorts] >> How old do you think you were then? >> Same age. It all happened right around the same time. I could be wrong about that. >> Okay. >> But that's what instinct tells me. That's what all my that's what all the the [snorts] patterns of behavior that happen like all my life. I I never masturbated very much. I would do it from time to time and it would last maybe a minute or two. [snorts] Porn is way too much for me. I can't I can't do that. But when I would imagine things, it would always be from the man's point of view, it would always be consensually raping another woman. [snorts] She would present herself to him and just go limp and let him do what he wanted. And then there were other deeper dreams, dreams, fantasies where he would have some sort of psychedelic in his sperm and he would [snorts] they would brainwash women into worshiping their [ __ ] And I had one sexual partner one time, James, he was lovely. I always remember laughing so much with him. And [snorts] I told him in the beginning that I had problems with sex and I don't feel kisses. They don't feel like anything for me. And [snorts] he's simply quote my pace. We did. And in sex, I'm always so loud, but I go live. And then he tried to give me oral one time. And I fought and I kicked and I ried and I tried to get away and it wasn't working. [snorts] And I went and I was so desperate cuz he was ruining it. And I told my parents cuz I was so desperate. They never looked at me. He said that was normal. They said sex wasn't anything special and that I wasn't missing out on anything and that [snorts and clears throat] they didn't have sex either. I didn't know what to do. My mom, you know, I have no proof. My mom when I was young, she spoke to the gynecologist and got them to not do a pad until my first sexual experience. My god. >> Was your dad touch you in appropriately as an adult? [snorts] >> No. My dad never wanted anything to do with me. He was It [snorts] was never okay to have emotion. It was never okay to be around them. It was I [snorts] sat in my room and I was alone. the times in high school where I went a full month without talking to a single person. >> Girl, that's going to be incredibly lonely. >> I'm used to it now. And in fact, it's harder for me to be around people than it is to be on. That's why I have my voices now, I think, because I just >> don't know. >> And your animals >> and my babies. >> And I'm going to have to release the voices at some point and get back into being with people and forming normal collections. This was the worst part of that because I couldn't heal and I was free and I real considering who we deal with you actually are and considering what happened. >> Yeah. the voices for the last 5 years. You know, all my life, I've never been allowed to talk to people. And my dad, whenever I tried to talk about things, I never went to college and never did anything. He would always scoff or shut me down or change the subject or remind me how stupid I am. [snorts] And just But these last five years, I talk in my head to the voices. [snorts] I can't hear them very well. I feel them more than anything. I think I broke at one point because of the pressure of it all and I disassociated. So they're just me. They're just my emotions. I just couldn't handle them anymore. >> You disassociated with the voices. >> I I separated myself, I think. And cuz I feel them. I feel their emotions. And like they'll give me headaches, >> but through working with them, they'll just let that the headaches will go away. And so I think it was me psychologically separating my own emotions because I couldn't handle it anymore. But I talked to them about all sorts of things for these last 5 years. In a single night, I have more conversations with the people in my head than I think I have anyone in my entire life. >> Talk more to us tonight than you have with in the wild, too. Huh? >> Yeah. >> Do you need any snacks or anything? I'm okay with >> chips, cookies, candy. >> Keep going. >> All right. It's like my dad mood's kicking in. Like, is your blood sugar low? Cuz we can't have you like >> So, so what do these voices? What do they tell you? >> It's been a long journey with us. I think in all honesty, I was going through trauma cycles with them because there were times when they would rape me, too, and it was horrific. But they love me too. And they broke me down to the point where I just couldn't even function mentally. >> And then they stopped. And they take care of me now, though. And they tell me all the time how brilliant I am, how lovely I am. And they haven't let it go the bad things they did to me. And I [snorts] began to create again. and with them and you're [snorts] so wonderful now though. >> Do you think there's any chance that you just spent too much time inside your own head? >> Well, that's definitely a chance. >> Not enough time just talking to people like us, like normal people. [snorts] And then you couldn't figure out how to get out to meet more normal people. And then eventually the only thing you could think of was to shoot your dad. We could end. >> Yeah. >> Can I ask a different totally off topic question? Where'd you get the gun? Whose gun was it? [snorts] >> It was a gun my dad bought for me for my self-defense. >> Well, that backfired. >> Yep. He used to hold it to his head actually when he would scream at my mom to get her to pay attention to him and not run away so that he could sit there and belittle her all he wanted. [snorts] I saw it. And of course, when I was getting up courage, I mentioned it to him again and he said, "I made that up. I didn't see it. I didn't. That didn't happen. He's not suicidal. That didn't happen." >> Oh, he said he didn't do those things. >> He never did those things. He remembers all of his rages, but he never did those things. >> Does it Does it start making you feel a little bit crazy like you're trying to figure out like what's real? Because Or do you do a pretty good job of remembering? >> No, it's never done that for me. >> Okay. voices help me. They get angry with me, too. And I'm able to get angry at and with them because I've never been able to express any emotion all my life, [snorts] but I can with them. And we've reached a point where it's been a very, very long time since they've ever hurt me or said anything wrong to me, my voices. And they want me to start reaching out to people, Julie and Charlie. They didn't want me to kill my dad. >> They didn't want you to kill your dad. >> No, [snorts] they wanted to get home, but they didn't want me to. They didn't want me to do that. I had to talk with them for a very long time to convince them that it was okay. And they were there with me, helping me, supporting me. You convinced him it was okay to shoot your dad. >> Yeah, we've been the idea came into my head [snorts] three weeks ago. And >> shoot your dad 3 weeks ago. >> Okay. >> And I was high at the time. I only get high about on [snorts] my weekends because it hits me hard. >> What do you get high on? >> A little bit of weed. There should be a label for it in my kitchen. The exact stuff that I get. It's a little bit of a weed honey that I put in my in my tea just on my weekends. >> You're the most organized person that I've ever talked to in here. Like you tell us where you know where everything is. You know where the labels are. You know the dates and times. >> I'm ADHD and I have PTSD. I believe I'll hear ticks in the house and I hear my dad hissing. [snorts] Damn it. Probably always have that. But the way to manage that and keep it from be ripping me apart because I like that I'm ADHD. I like [snorts] my flights of fancy. I like the adventures me and my family go on. The voices >> could be helpful for writing too, couldn't it? >> It's very helpful with it. >> Yeah. You said you like writing. >> Yeah. >> And so my OCD I kind of created it actually in order to keep my house clean and organized so I know where everything is. So that and [snorts] I have a planner to keep everything organized because that's one thing my dad would always use against me. The fact that I can't function without him. [snorts] So I found a way to function without him. I do a damn good job. >> Sounds like you are very organized. Why did he think you couldn't function without him? [snorts] >> Because he told me that since I was a baby, since I was very young. It's all him and mom would ever say. I had the opportunity one time when I had a friend, Kaylee. She's a childhood friend of mine. [snorts] We stopped talking 5 years ago when everything went down and she we were going to get a house or an apartment together. My parents threw a massive fit through livid. [snorts] They wouldn't let me go. >> Why do you think they wanted to hold you back like that? >> I I think it's a narcissistic thing. My dad's definitely a narcissist. He shows up some things. The therapist I spoke to, her number and her name, Lee Fischer, is on the piece of paper that I gave to the officers that picked me up. [snorts] She had she thought my dad had a diagnosible mental illness, though I can't remember what what she said it was exactly. >> What did he do? What was his job? >> He [snorts] was an electrical engineer. >> Was he retired now or >> he's retired? Yep. He's been retired for a couple years now. >> Yeah. >> So, how how long have you been kind of planning this taken his life? >> Um, three weeks. >> Three weeks. >> Three weeks. Yep. Four four days ago, I started writing in the journal. So, kind of take me through the the three weeks till today. >> Just kind of tell me what you've been doing, what you've been thinking. [snorts] And >> um when I was was not high, I've been high maybe four days out of the 3 weeks. >> Okay. in there. So that I would go to work and we would talk and we would consider and we would look at all my options and we would look at everything I'd been through, all the fears, all >> and when you say we, we talk about the voices in here >> and more or less I kind of bounce the ideas off of them and I feel what they feel and I feel what I feel and I listen to how calm or not calm I am and everything like that and I this [snorts] was the only thing I could think to do. Okay. >> At this point, >> what steps did you have to take to to [snorts] wind up here? >> I walked around the house with the gun with the safety on, of course, cuz I don't want to hurt my my dogos. And I I practiced aiming it a little bit. I had to go to to the gun people gun place because I couldn't figure out how to open the cartridge and that scared me. >> And so they taught me how to open that. >> Where was that? What was it? Like a gun store? the shooting range. Um, >> sharpshooters. >> Yeah. >> Yeah, >> that one. That was about um two weeks ago, I think. >> Two weeks ago. >> Two weeks ago. It was It was after I decided maybe I I definitely wanted to do that. >> Kill [snorts] my dad. >> Did you shoot the gun there? >> I did not shoot it. I planned on doing another week, but then I just never quite did. I never went back. >> Did you Have you ever shot it before? >> I have a couple times. >> Yep. At a shooting range. Um, one time it was an outdoor shooting range. Um, one was an indoor shooting range. I've done it. So, I've shot it twice. >> Okay. Okay. So, so you went you went to sharpshooters and had them show you >> how to open it up. Um how to to pull the thing on the There's there's a little thing you pull so it slips out so you can do the bullets. >> Yep. >> And um [snorts] so they taught me how to do that and how to to hold, you know, how to hold it and little things like that. And then I just went home with it. Do you remember who you talked to there? >> I do not know. It was a very busy day on that one. Um >> I don't think I could look up when what day exactly it was. >> That's okay. They're they're nice. They're very helpful there. >> Yeah. >> Is that where you bought it or your dad bought it or did you? >> No, my dad bought it from a gun show, I believe, a while ago. I was there with him at the time. It's [snorts] about the only gun that'll fit in my hand. >> Right. Yeah. >> Small. >> So then what are the other So you went there, they they showed you how to use the gun. This was kind of after you made the decision. >> I made visual Yeah. visualizations in my head of of shooting him and it was always so hard in my head, you know, and I just I was so terrified that he would he would see it, you know, and he would he would bat it out of my hand and hurt me or if I shot him, it would it wouldn't, you know, cuz you hear stories about how you'll shoot someone with a 22 and it won't it won't do anything really. Mhm. >> Were you worried about that? >> I was that he would come and he would hurt me [snorts] and I felt the options of going to jail as as long as my babies are okay. [snorts] I don't know what all is entailed with jail. I have no idea. But I decided, you know, if I'm going to make this conscious decision, >> [snorts] >> I'm okay with going to jail. >> So, you thought about going to jail and >> what that would look like and how that would impact your life? >> I have no life. I have no people in it. They wouldn't probably wouldn't let me probably wouldn't let me write anymore. But so long as my dogos went to somewhere okay, [snorts] >> I'm okay with that. >> We're okay with it. It's the the [snorts] result. I killed someone. So you go to jail for that and he wasn't trying to kill me at the time. >> Can I ask you a quick question? So what I'm trying to get to is how we got from let's say a rape when you were young. My specialty is sex crimes. So horrible stuff. How we got from there to shooting dad. Does [snorts] that make sense? What accelerated it? What? How come after all this time you decided now is the time? >> I have no idea either. It seems so random. And it was >> But you're not random girl. >> No, it was like >> focused. >> Yeah. I I made the decision and I thought, well, you know, my dad I don't know when my dad's coming home and so that gives me a lot of time to >> to kind of pull out of it and and and to rationalize it. And then all of a sudden he called the next day and he's back in 3 weeks. I was like, >> so when he called and said, "I'm coming home." That was kind of the trigger for you, like I need like a plan. >> Yeah. I mean, I was already going to do it, but I figured I'd have months, you know, and >> talk yourself out of it or whatever. >> Yeah. To talk myself out of it, to plan things, to figure things out, to to do other stuff. And all of a sudden, he was >> he was going to be home. >> He was going to be home. >> So, during these three weeks, did you try to talk yourself out of it or >> Yeah. It never really worked too much. By the end of the first week, I was like, "This is for better and for worse, regardless as to what my result is, whether I go to jail or not." >> You were committed. >> This is what I'm going to do. >> What you're going to do. >> What other steps did you take? You said you went to sharp shooter. You learned how to use the gun. You practice walk. You walked around with it and with a safety on making sure you were safe >> to make sure cuz it never felt comfortable in my hands. It never felt right in my hands. >> I got So, you kind of get used to it. And and I do know the few times I I I shot with it, it would go somewhere else >> in my head, it was always impossible to shoot my dad. It's like the gun the bullets would go around him >> or he was just he's psychic and he would know and he'd run at me. >> What other steps did you take? >> That was kind of it. >> Preparation. Aside from talking to to the voices in my head, I have every little bit of it written down [clears throat] in detail in the journal. >> Um, >> can you summarize kind of your journal for us? Like what's like we'll get a hold of it and read it, but we don't have it with us. >> The first um three I I dated and I did the time stamps too for when I did each entry and the first three um entries or so. >> You are so organized. God damn, girl. We got to find We should find you. We could have had a >> a job doing something besides this. >> Yeah. >> Like I don't know what it is, but if we could put you to use something or >> Oh my god, >> we have we should be talking about that instead of this. Anyway, so you time stamp you stamped everything with date and time. >> And I put my thoughts about my my how I was thinking through everything and I would rant or talk about things. I mentioned different details of my stories. I I mentioned different details as to when exactly the voices started, what's what um when what happened with the hypnotist in more detail because sometimes I I see the world in pictures and sometimes it's hard for me to translate them into words. And I was worried that at this point I wouldn't be able to say things properly or give you all the details that I that you should have. And so I wanted to make sure they were written down because I've always that's always been my my safe space writing. No, you're about 100 times ahead of like most of the people we talk to in here. >> Okay. >> Most people are kind of dumb dumb. I can't articulate what happened. >> I spent 5 years trying to prove to myself through educating myself and and calming down and getting into fenue and doing all these things so that I could leave my dad without doing this. >> Great. You were looking for a way to get out without this, but he was never really found one. >> Yeah. >> Can I ask you a different question? Did you were you actually sick tonight or did you just not want to go pick up your dad? >> I didn't want to pick up my dad, but it happens a lot. I have a lot of [clears throat] them and that was one that was possible for him and it was the best option if I had to pick him up from the from the place. I was worried I'd have a panic attack. I had a panic attack yesterday when I called him on the phone and I almost got one of the social cues wrong and I was worried he'd get angry at me and I knew that if he came home angry I wouldn't be able to shoot him because I'd freeze up and I would just stop. >> What happens when he gets angry? >> [snorts] >> It's like my brain stops and I have to I I stare him down and I just and I just quietly let him scream and at some point later cuz it's what he needs. I'll say I'm sorry. I'll give him a hug and say I love him. It's the only thing that works. >> You kind of just freeze up and panic a little bit and >> I can't do anything. I can't move. It's like I'm scared that if I move he's going to run at me. It sounds like you can't talk to him about your feelings and >> I can't do any of that. >> Is it Does all this happen without the physical abuse? >> He's [snorts] never He slapped me twice that I can recall, but he's never never again. It's always very verbal, though. One time when I was younger, he picked up a kitchen chair and he smashed it on the ground while he was talking to mom. and he's always been very fit. >> What's What's the verbal abuse like from him? >> He'll belittle me. My dad is so unfair. He told me not to pay rent and he refused when I tried to set up a thing so I could pay rent. [snorts] But then whenever he's angry at my brother, he comes back at me and he screams and tells me how useless I am, how pathetic, how I wouldn't be able to do anything without him, how I don't even pay rent. >> It sounds like you're A ton of money, right? How much money have you saved? [snorts] >> I have 100,000 in a Roth IRA. Of course, my dad did help me with that and he taught me how to do my tax. >> That's okay. I don't have 100,000 of my Roth and I'm like 50. >> Good [snorts] on you. >> Thank you. >> It's impressive. Does your brother live at home? >> No. Where's he? >> I don't I haven't talked to him for 10 years. I've disowned him. I don't >> What's his name? >> His name is Trace Andrew Bradburn. Trace A Bradburn. and he he left as soon as he could and he ignored me the rest of my life. >> Does he live in Spok for the government? >> I think I think he works >> You know what he does for the government? >> Um he works in the garbage disposal industry. I believe he's a manager there. Big manager there. >> Okay. So he got out as soon as he could. >> He did. >> It was because of kind of the same things that you're talking about. How how old is he? He's eight years my senior. So, right around in his 40s. >> 40s. >> So, should we notify about this? That's kind of what I was wondering. Like, who >> It's just me. >> Just you. >> Just me. >> Any other family? >> I do have a family that lives in Boisey, but I haven't ever spoken to them. They don't even know my number or I theirs. >> Okay. Um, on my mom's side. >> Does your dad have any brothers or sisters? >> He does. I >> can't remember his name. I haven't seen them since I was very very young. >> Okay. >> My parents didn't like their their family and so we never saw them. >> There's um on my mom's side, I know them slightly better, but I don't talk with them. >> So, I know you kind of mentioned earlier about the you had written everything down in the journal. Um and I saw that your journal was next to your cell phone. >> Yes. >> Okay. Um is there what's what's in your cell phone? any anything about tonight in your cell phone? >> My banking information. Um there's a couple of contacts, the vet, Exfinity, um Joab, he's a friend of work from that I've I've known for two years. I finally opened up to him about what happened to me. Um so I put his number down there in the journal in case you want to talk. >> What's his name? >> His name is Joab. I don't know his first name. I'm very bad with names and faces. I think it's a defense mechanism to keep me from having to get close to people. So, I just don't remember people's names. >> But you kind of got close to him. >> Yeah, he's a friend of mine. >> Okay. How long has he been a friend of yours? >> Two years. >> Two years. >> We don't talk much. >> Um, just once in a blue moon and he kind of stopped talking to me nearly completely after I opened up to him that night. >> What did you open up to him about? I was raped and about how my dad abused me and about how I was starting to write again and I was going to publish a book and then I'd be free. >> Okay. So, does your cell phone have a password? >> 5033. >> 5033. >> Thank you. So, um, you said there hasn't really been physical abuse lately. There was a few times, let's see, >> the the rape, the couple, >> the couple slaps, everything is kind of the emotional, verbal abuse, >> belittling. Um, and it sounds like your dad's been gone for a while, right? Um, would you say like three months, four months, five months? >> Five monthsish perhaps? >> Probably five months. Okay. And when you guys would talk on the phone in those five months while he's been gone, >> does he belittle you over the phone or are those >> He's he found a a lady he liked, Micho, who recently um they got into a fight and separated, but he likes Hawaii because the people there see him as a rich white person who is intelligent and he likes that. And so that made him very happy. Before he went to Hawaii though, he was always moody and he would be very reactive. Then he left for Hawaii and now he's sweetie. But again, I think it's because the people there treat him differently. I could never really be very close with him because it was too dangerous. He would >> belittle me, make things so difficult. >> Okay. But there hasn't been any of that belittling over the phone in these last five months. >> No. >> Okay. All right. And and you talked to him three weeks ago and that's when he said, "I'll be home in three weeks." And that's when things started going where you started thinking about >> they were already going to go there. >> They were already going there before then. >> Yeah. Cuz it was it was the night it was the day before that that I came to the idea, you know. Well, hi. But then again, it was I figured I'd have months to either talk myself out it, figure something else out, or plan for it. one of those three and then he called the next day and he told me he was going to be there in three in three weeks >> and that's when everything kind of went in motion. >> Did you think of any other ways to kill him other than shooting him or [clears throat] that was your >> I'm 4 foot 10 85 to 90 lb and he's exmarine. There was no other options and I don't want to I I don't want to do nasty poisoning or >> or anything like that. >> So, I don't do it. >> He walks in the house. You saw him get home from the cameras. >> And you said you close the slider, kept the dogs in the laundry area. Is that right? >> Yeah. There's a little doggy door so they can get out to the backyard. There's no contained there. >> Take me through kind of just the steps. He walks in the house. >> I walk to the front. >> Did he see you or say hi or >> He did. He was stepping towards me. He was concerned because, you know, I had some breakdowns while writing in the journal. I wrote my thoughts while I was planning it up to that moment even with timestamps on there. >> And um I would have a time stamp for when exactly I called him and went to messages and he and then I just I shot him. I planned to use the entire cartridge on him. I figured I'd be so angry. You know, this is my [clears throat] one and only chance to get revenge. And I just I don't want that. >> And where did you put the gun after? I pulled the cartridge out of it to disarm it and I set it on the um the there's a little armoire thing underneath the TV right in front of the door with the glass under the front door so that the police would be able to see it as they were entering seeing that it was there and it was all undone. Um and then I waited in the front steps with the door closed. Okay. >> Um so so they would be able to clear the area um and they got here as effortlessly as possible. >> Okay. And >> another reason why I kept the dogs in the laundry room, it would keep them out of the way of the police officers while they were searching the house and taking care of the body and things like that. >> Of course. So, are there any journal entries from today? >> Yes, there are. There were um two or three. >> Yes, two or three. >> Yep. I kept a pretty good record of it. Whenever I felt any any thoughts or feelings about it, I would journal them down for for the inspectors and lawyer [snorts] if ever I figured I needed one. But I don't know if I want one. It is what it is. >> Just a couple of points of clar clarification. Make sure I understand everything because at the end we're going to write our reports. I just want to get it as accurate as possible. You and I are on that page together. We both like to be accurate. Um, did you take your migraine meds today? >> No, took no no medication whatsoever. I wasn't sick today. >> Um, I don't know where I prescribed by my psychiatrist. She um looked at me and I told her everything and I told her I was open to medication because I wanted whatever would fix it. And she doesn't she didn't think I needed any. So she prescribed actually it lowers your blood pressure is all it really does but as a side effect it makes you happier. It causes your brain to produce more pherommones or more of the chemicals that make you happier. Um and I took them for two to three months and I didn't really notice anything. Of course, by that time, me and my voices were working hard on funuing, um, changing up my environment to make me happier, cleaner, also getting me into writing consistently, getting me into old passions that would help spark my my own um, emotions. And I was doing really, really awesome. I was happy all the time. I was positive. I was doing work on a No, I I stopped doing it. I I continue. I didn't notice a difference between when I was off of it even though I was on it for the right amount of time. So, I just stopped refilling it and um [snorts] >> So, none today? >> No. Yeah, none today. >> And no migraine meds. >> Um yeah, none no migraine meds today. I have um for that. That's for my migraine. Um my my um family doctor prescribed that to me, Rebecca Johnson. Um she prescribed the she said half a pill half a pill. she said. Um I also have one for my nausea, my severe nausea. [snorts] And um I keep some of that on me typically, especially when I go to work, just in case I need it, but no, nothing today. >> So I'm jumping around here a little bit. So I've been listening, taking notes here. I don't time stamp my notes, but I did take notes. >> Uh do the cameras work in your house? Do you think do you think they capture this this interaction? >> They do work, but I haven't figured out how to get them to start recording again. and they say they're recording, but I tried I had a paranoid moment where I went to get some cereal and some of it it was already open, but I don't remember opening it. And so I was freaked out. So I went back to see if somebody broke in my house to heaven forbid eat cereal. Um it was not working. I realized I was just really high when I ate the cereal. [laughter] >> But that's when I realized and that was like a week ago. And so there's a note on my camcorder apologizing for that. I can't figure out. Wait, you left notes on the camcorder or the recorder for the police? >> Yes. And on the house. >> Shut the [ __ ] up. Are you serious? >> Yeah. I left them on the laundry door, too, to tell them that my dogs were not >> You're the nicest homicide person I've ever met in my life. Like, you're like, "Well, we put the dogs in the back and I make sure the gun was out so they would know." Like, holy God. Okay. Uh, [clears throat] last question or not last question, but one of my questions. I think you said that you thought you had shot him twice. >> Twice in the chest, once in the head, I believe. >> So, twice. Did he fall? When was the third shot? >> Um, so I shot him I shot him twice in quick succession and he just fell. >> Okay. >> And he was so still. >> Yeah. >> It's like he was sleeping, but I was so calm and composed and just like in this zone of not thinking and I just needed to be certain. Right. >> And I shot him once in the head. >> Was he like laying down at that point? >> Yeah, he was already on the ground and he was out. He was probably dead then, too. >> Gotcha. And you just shot him once in the head >> just to make absolutely sure. I considered cuz in my journals I was so angry often times in the journals. I wanted to shoot him in the crotch and also in the mouth and all these things, but I was just like >> stopped there. >> I can't. >> Did you make any journal entries after you shot him? >> No, I called the police right away. I grabbed my journal and I went right outside to talk with the the person. I didn't even look at the body again. I just went straight outside. Everything's already done, ready to go. I went >> Okay. So, you we were talking about your cameras. Is there like a unit in the house? >> It's in the laundry room kind of where the dogs are. Um, but again, like I said, you can see what's going on in there, but I tried looking through it to see and I couldn't get it to work. It says it's recording when there's motion around, but it's not going anywhere. So, I don't know what it's recording on. I couldn't figure it out myself. Whenever I tried to go back, it said that it wasn't there was nothing there. >> Do you know if that has a password? >> Um, it is and it should be written on the machine. I saw it there. Um, it Yeah, it should be on a pad there. It was It should be actually sitting out cuz I was looking at it. There was a police officer, gentleman who came. Um, there was a disturbance next door that I called for. Um, she was being beaten by her husband and I called for that. And um, I I can't remember when exactly this was, four or five months ago. Um, and he came by and it was working then, but I was trying to get the footage for them and I think I tinkered with it and it just doesn't work now. And okay, my dad, they put it in so many years ago, but he said it was my problem now and I had to figure it out cuz he just didn't know and I I don't know. >> Okay. >> Work again. >> Are there any cameras inside or are they all outside? >> Not that I know of outside. Okay. >> Um, I had another question and I just forgot it. is almost in the market. So, >> yeah, >> it's reasonable. >> My >> So, okay. Um I know you had mentioned you and it's in your journal some different doctors and and whatnot. my therapist that I went to, the psychiatrist, um, anyone that I open up to about my rape or any situations going on with my dad, especially people who had known me for a while. And also that boyfriend that I talked to a long time ago, but I don't know his number or anything. I haven't talked to him for so long. So, that's probably >> And you you said you haven't been diagnosed with anything. Is that correct? >> Did you ever tell anyone or talk to anyone about your plan to kill your dad? >> No. >> No. >> I told Joab that I wanted to kill him at one point and he said yeah he wanted to kill his dad too. >> That's what I had to do. >> Didn't tell him that you were actually going to go through with it or >> and that was many many months ago now. >> That was >> Y before I opened up to him about what happened between me and my dad. >> Okay. >> My family. >> All right. Do you need any snacks or anything? No, but Voja, he had an appointment to get fixed. He's I'm actually fostering him and they won't let me adopt him fully until after he's fixed >> and it's going to be at 6:30 to 7. I probably will have to reschedu that >> today. Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. We'll have to >> I can do that. >> Probably get that rescheduled. >> I can do that. >> Alyssa Bradburn was charged in Spokane County with first-degree murder in the June 2024 shooting death of her father, Timothy Bradburn. A jury convicted her of first-degree murder with a firearm finding on March 2nd, 2026. On April 2nd, 2026, she was sentenced to 340 months in prison, 280 months plus a consecutive 60-month firearm enhancement, followed by 36 months of community custody. Washington does not use traditional parole for this sentence. As of the latest verified court and prosecutor records after sentencing, she remains incarcerated and serving that term.