Well, we don't want to talk about that. >> No, we do. When I was when I was working in Texas, I should when the school shooting happened, I should have been there quicker and I wasn't. >> We can't blame ourselves for that. >> No, we can't. And I had a mother cry. You know what it feels like to have a mother dying, a dead child, and I had to lie to I lied to her or I said I lied to my wife. >> There is nothing in life worth taking your own life for. >> I'm not taking my own life. That's me. >> There's nothing worth it for us to do. >> I came here uh from Texas thinking that you're safe here. >> It's definitely safer here than other places. >> Definitely not. Safer than Texas. Never got arrested in Texas for nothing. for everything. I cheated out of here 3 days ago. >> You're cheated. >> Shot and killed. >> Houston, Texas by some [ __ ] >> Take a big deep breath. And like I said, your lips around there. Oh, what? Oh, what about right here? Take a big breath and blow blow blow blow blow blow blow blow. Keep blowing. Keep blowing. [music] Keep blowing. Keep blowing. Keep blowing. Keep blowing. Keep blowing. Keep blowing. Keep blowing. Keep going.