When I was when I was working in Texas, I shouldn't with Uvalde, the school shooting up and I shouldn't have been there quicker than I was. >> You can't blame yourself for that. >> No, we can't. And I had a mother clawing at me. You know what it feels like to have a mother who died, a dead child? And then I got to lie. I lied to her. First time I lied in my life. And I told her he was fine. We had him in a holding. >> Sounds like a rough time back there. >> You know we do. >> Mhm. >> I wish you guys would just like [ __ ] it. And let me just make sure my dog's okay before I leave. >> Yep. Yep, Renee's on her way. >> And then maybe you can you just end it. >> There is nothing in life worth taking your own life for. >> I'm not taking my own life because of our dogs. >> Okay. >> That's good. >> There's nothing worth it for us to do. >> so bad because it's like Do you know how many times I've been on school shootings in Texas?