You know, at first I think I was just watching because it was like, whoa, you can do that. Like, yeah. And because you don't have to just do what they tell you every time. Yeah. Yeah. It's crazy. So, you're saying that your wife sort of sort of safe sounding board that you can rely on to kind of back to get you backed away from the the edge of the cliff. And absolutely everything she is. Yeah. Yeah. Definitely. Yeah. I guess that's a nice way of saying that she controls your life. No, I'm showing like hopefully she'll she'll see this lackluster in the studio. The He does he is real. He has emerged from the shadows. Yeah. Clearly armed to the teeth. I got a couple. When I first saw your videos, I remember looking at your your channel and seeing that your first foray was sort of into the gaming cuz you still had some gaming stuff up. Yeah, at that point and I was like, [Music] hm. Hey everybody, this is Dale with Lackluster Gaming. Uh, just starting out a new channel here. Wanted to see what you guys think. I don't think that I saw that Colorado Springs. Was it Colorado Springs? Yeah. Yeah. I don't think I saw that like when you posted it. I think what happened was I came across your channel and I thought I was intrigued by one of the videos and then I did the thing where you go back and you look at somebody's catalog and I did find my way to this Colorado Springs video. I just remember that you were doing something very innocent. I think you were videoing a medical call or something next door and it became contingent and it was like a contempt to cop situation. It seems like this thing was a catalyst that changed everything. Um, it was. And so, yeah, if you don't mind, just sort of share your experience. I know you've probably shared some of that. Yeah, sure. Um, I So, yeah, at the time I was doing, man, I had a really weird contract with a company called Tencent and they contracted me to stream on some platform they were trying to build in the US to take Twitch and YouTube revenue. And it failed miserably. But I got out in the nick of time because David Nelson from CSPD showed up next door. Well, I I technically I called them. Chris came on that side and that side. I was a single dad. I had full custody of my daughter. Uh was living alone, had no family, nothing in Colorado Springs. It was just really kind of a a miserable situation. The guy next door, he was essentially sending out like goodbye letters. He was going to say goodbye for forever, which is why I called. I think we need I think we should wait for a shield if we can get one. Don't you What do you think? I'm hurt. 511. We're going to stand by for shield before we go to the door. My intentions were just to get him some help, you know, knock on the door. Hey man, what's going on? Let's take you to the hospital and get you checked out something. And they geared up full riot gear. did a full stack on the door. Hello. This is my main way home. After helping him for half an hour, they took issue with me filming what they were going to do next. Get inside. I'm I'm good. Get inside. Get inside. Did you hear me? We need you to get inside for what? The guy comes running at you with a gun. What do you think? Then I'll get then I'll get inside. Okay. I will be back to rescue you if you don't get inside. You're going to arrest me on my own property for standing up to arrest you. Okay. [Music] He's not going to arrest me. He can't. Oh, I'm sorry. You're going to get arrested for standing on my porch. Okay. Thank you. I I gave you a lawful order. I'm trying to for standing on my porch. Have to worry about you. I'll be back with the summons. You can explain it. You got it. You'll talk to my lawyer. What's your name and badge number then? Hey, name and badge number, [ __ ] welfare recipient. Back in 2017 to 2019, I'd been watching quite a bit and they had molded me in more ways than I really knew and uh kind of changed the way that I had thought. You know, at first I think I was just watching because it was like, whoa, you can do that? Like, yeah. And you don't have to just do what they tell you every time. Yeah. Yeah. It's crazy. I would have called you first, Greg. I don't have your phone number. I'm sorry. Would you stop? You talk to me. Okay. You're going to be talking to me in my police car in a few minutes. Fine. Yeah. Clash with Bow, James Freeman, Johnny 5, a bunch of the old school guys back in, you know, Jeff Gray. I think it just kind of saturated and and steeped for a while and then when it happened it was just like just like a a lit fuse went off. He's going to arrest me for filming on my front porch. Him. Hey, you got a supervisor on scene? This motherucker in here says he's going to arrest me for filming you. [Music] If you don't have a supervisor, get one. [Music] If I've done something illegal, come get it. Welfare recipient. I got someone's coming to talk to you. Good. What's your name and badge number? They'll talk to you about it. What's your name and badge number? Right out here. I'll give it to you. Name and badge number. Is that a lawful order and now it's evolved into this crazy thing? It's weird. Did they end up Was there any enforcement action taken against you as a result or it's just kind of like a piss and battle that just No, no, no enforcement against me at all. We don't know you. There's no established relationship. I don't know. I talked to them for like half an hour. Okay. But we don't know. He had a little hasty fit about me filming him. We don't I don't care if you film. I doesn't matter if you care. So, and and it's a protected activity to a point. It is. Not always. Understand that. When can you not film? You cannot film inside of a hospital. Oh, fine. Hippo violations. Are we in a hospital? Do you see a hospital? I'm just saying you're close to a hospital. Where is the nearest available hospital? What is it I can do for you today, sir? I want his name and badge number so I can file a formal complaint. For what, though? For threatening to violate my civil liberties while I'm filming on my front porch. Okay. But did did he violate your civil liberties? No. Cuz Okay. Luckily, you're smart enough to tell them to [ __ ] off. Well, that's not really what I said, but probably not cuz you're probably a little more professional than that. And so, who knows what they would have done if I wasn't filming. We had that conversation about what you can and can't do. And I said, and I told him, hey, he's on his property. He's doing what's absolutely within his right to do. Mhm. Um, so we had that conversation. Good. Um, from and maybe he should be trained more frequently on it. And again, I I think just to listen to me a little bit. Just hear me out. We can't have our attention distracted by somebody else kind of walking up behind and around and I didn't. I stood here for about half an hour. As long as you were on your P, I don't care. Yeah. Right here. I'll give you the video. Um and I believe you. I absolutely believe you. Yeah. Um but just like from their standpoint, they're trying to deal with the kid with like who's armed and trying to kill himself. They need to focus on that. I get it. Okay. So just just something to think about like in future contacts and I'm not going to stop filming especially for my own property. Um but if you're on your property, go for it all day long. I will. Okay. Every time. But just think about that if if you're not on prop your own property and you're out or something like that. Just something to think about. Yeah. Well within my rights to do what I was doing. All right. The neighbor, he's good. Um the last I heard from him, he's actually sober and he's well. He's got a good job. Uh David Nelson was the the officer that that you know peed his panties or whatever in my presence. Filed a complaint against him and they were sustained but they can't let me know what happened. But now he runs his own private investigating firm out of Colorado Springs. So he's not with the department anymore. But I imagine just retired because I think he had like 30 years on. Oh what a what a kinky dink. So, you know, you had mentioned that you you basically had this I guess I'd call it more than anything benefit of the doubt that you always gave to to the state, you know, be sort of I guess I don't know if loyalty to the state is the right way to say it, but just that you didn't maybe see the things that you see now. I've noticed in my own sort of trajectory that the further that I get away from government employment, the more militant I become in my attitude. We'd have to be really careful about it because, you know, you can you can go too far in not just as a human being, you can go too far in in sort of not giving people that are other human beings that are just trying to survive the benefit of the doubt sometimes. But I've found that I trust less and less, ask more and more questions. I'm suspicious of more and my overall attitude towards the government is more militant than it was even a year ago. Um, Is that something that you've experienced too? Yeah. Yeah, definitely. Um and and to be completely frank, my my wife, she she's not real into this. And so sometimes I'll come home enraged and I'll I'll talk about what happened in today's thing and this and that. Can you believe it? And and she'll talk me down. But um but it's it's it's actually quite interesting cuz she uh contends with my ideas. some of my sometimes I assert that somebody else might be evil or that what they've done is extremely wrong and and she's she's she's very capable of helping me turn inward. notice when I'm projecting uh because I'm fallible and sometimes I can't help but to have uh I don't know if pity is the right word, empathy, sympathy for for some of the some of the officers that I know are maybe not doing it out of ego or evil or whatever the case may be. And it might just be this is how they were taught and they think it's right. Yeah. Not that that makes it right, but um but it but it certainly helps me have a little bit of sympathy for for them because I I know that that is essentially where I came from because you know if it wasn't for these channels um which is why I think like a part part of what what you do, what I do, what all those guys before me did uh is so important because if it wasn't for them I would have been the guy on you know police activity saying you know FFO and you know all that fun stuff. So, you're saying that your wife sort of inserts humanity where you find none for you and not necessarily plays devil's advocate, but just sort of reminds you that look, these are people, you know, and they're flawed and, you know, that's sort of her your So, she's your sort of safe sounding board that you can rely on to kind of back to get you backed away from the the edge of the cliff. Absolutely. Everything she is. Yeah. Yeah. Definitely. Yeah. I guess that's a nice way of saying that she controls your life. No, I'm joking. Yeah. No, she's in the light. Hopefully, she'll see she'll see this. Uh, it's a nice way of saying that she she sticks you down in the basement with your guns and then she takes your pants and wears them around the house. Just I mean, you can get all kinds of wild with your imagination. I didn't join the army because I wanted like to fight for freedom or anything. I joined cuz I I had no idea what to do with my life and uh was just kind of drifting. Went to the recruiter. What can I do here? and they told me healthc care specialist, hey, as long as it it isn't a combat job, I'm good to go. And turns out I was a combat medic for first infantry division. Went straight to Iraq, like right out of boot camp. Uh so that that was totally not expected. But I went from the mentality of I don't want to do any sort of combat related jobs to well now I'm in the army and I'm with the infantry. Like I wonder what it's like to shoot someone. They shooting at that door. Hey me and my gates. All right. This is Camp Commande. 7th of April. We're being attacked. fullfledged funds. Yeah. Crazy [ __ ] huh? Yeah. So, uh this right here, that's a mortar if you can hear me. Anyway, let's uh how do I jump in the pipe? All right. Peace. And it became this fascination of like, you know, like, well, well, now I have a legal right. I have the legal authority or or whatever to do that. And I just kind of wonder what it would feel like, you know, and and I got out of Iraq uh years later and suffered from mental catastrophe, PTSD they call it, uh and went through tons and tons of therapy. And that was one of the recurring issues that I had I had let my brain think that way, you know, and it was something that I couldn't control. just happened. And now that I've been through it, um, seen through a lot of cognitive cognitive dissonance and and all that fun stuff, um, I have an idea that a lot of the younger cops probably go there, too. Uh, I think it's very common. I I I know a lot of the guys that I was in Iraq with were like that, and that's why they joined. Uh, others are just like me. they became that way just by chance of, you know, experience. And um and I can't imagine that young or early 20-year-olds having that much power and weapons don't find themselves in that same pattern of thought. I spent 16 weeks at the West Virginia State Police Academy. I lived there. I went home on the weekends. Um, it was absolutely brutal and I learned, you know, not very much about the law. I learned how to think in a way now that I would say is uh is paranoid. And I would say in this idea that sort of uh everybody wants to kill you kind of thing. And I, you know, you kind of always got to be watching your back and all this stuff. And that and that and then when you get out, you go to your department and then you they teach you um all of this stuff things like that even better, right? Or or more specifically how to do it at this department and we're going to teach you all the things that this place didn't teach you cuz they teach you how to think like a cop. We're going to teach you how to be a cop.