taking my tower [Music] [Music] good day [Music] foreign [Music] [Music] I look like [Music] okay I was muted I was muted okay can y'all hear me now thank you Karma girl because you know I'd usually be talking by now thank you can y'all hear me okay yes thank you Shan yeah you already knew I was talking okay what I was saying was I know that um you know there's some days that Ladon works and so we're being flexible with time and also with mental health make sure she's still in a good place and everything oh I see her hey I couldn't get in the other way okay Ladon I got you I'm gonna drop the link for you hold on cause I was just saying hold on let me get it for you I was just uh making sure you're okay I'll say I know I saw you at lunchtime live okay that's for Ladonna Ladon only for now um but if she's comfortable afterwards if y'all want to come up and get words of encouragement as long as ladonna's comfortable with it we can do that for sure um let me make sure she gets up here and she's good to go and I'll say hi and I'll look at my make sure I check my alerts as I say hi but hey Karma Girl hey Sean hey 41 fit thank you for being here hey Cynthia yes is that a sunset oh I see Ladon okay um because this is her night imma cut my greetings short to make sure she's good and she's uh coming up here uh Ladon I'm gonna add you make sure it's you because you know how people do uh that stream yard spam stuff hold on one second hey I see you okay okay thank you all right it is maladonna okay um now Ladon just to let you know I don't want you to be surprised by it I'll be um when I get it ready I have some I'm trying to get some footage of just some peaceful running water to kind of calm you as you see it and people that have that are going through the uh listening to your story and everything just trying to give a relaxing Vibe um but I'm gonna bring you up uh most of us already know Ladon uh I met Ladonna through I believe Chit Chats live at least not if not formally met that's where I got to hear her voice first and hear pieces of her story and her opinions on things okay Ladonna I'm gonna give you the floor and we go at your pace so you just let me know hold on one second okay all right Ladonna are you good yeah hey hey okay let me take this off I'm gonna take your banner off um let's see thank you for still deciding to do this because like you said you your story is going to help a lot of people even if it's just cathartic and or educational so thank you no problem no problem and you um you can if you just want to whatever you want to do you want to open up first if you want to go ahead and Dive Right In this is your world um yeah I'll just you know we can just dive in you know it doesn't matter okay well we got some purple hearts dropping for you thank you I love you guys yes yes yes okay well I'm gonna mute myself unless you need me to come in and say anything I'll be muted you will not be interrupted okay all right all right I'm still here though I'm here all right thank you wishing oh I see it isn't that okay I see ya all right hey everybody so I know a lot of you know a little bit about me but I'm gonna start from the beginning I am the only child and um I was born to drug addicted parents both my mothers were heroin users they were IV my mother I I was raised by my grandmother but my grandmother had um 17 kids so most of them still lived in a house we share rooms with our moms I had a cousin that was closer to me because she was also the only child and her mom was also on drugs so we were raised like sisters but there was I learned that people well people made me feel different at an early age because my cousin was light-skinned it I was dark-skinned it we both had long hair we both was pretty but I didn't think that back then because when they would see us even if we was dressed to like oh Melanie you look cute your hair looks cute highlight on so right there planted the seed of me not feeling good enough or pretty so for years I just learned to um stuff things down and to just accept what was and my family back then they weren't the type that all was worried about DCF or don't do things in front of their kids you know my mom would tell me where to pick up stuff to bring and sneak into the jail for her you know um I learned about hustling and selling you know drugs and stuff like that at a young age you know because that's what my family was into and you needed to be doing something you know and they dragged us into it or not just drag Us in they made us feel like that was the thing to do you know so I got into [Music] heroin at a young age because when I watched my family and people around me it was more glamorized back then and um even though I seen certain things that heroin did to people I didn't see people really messed up back then so I was fooled and plus my mother to me was the coolest thing because she even though she did drugs and hustled she did have a name for being a hustler and um I thought that's what my life was supposed to be too no one told me that you know or poured into me about what I can be or anything like that so when I got into the streets I actually would actually take things from different people you know and sometimes it wasn't always the good things you know and I would allow myself to get in situations because I have false love I would dress up the outside but didn't love myself on the inside and I allowed myself to be with men no not too many that was verb physically abusive but I was in a couple of verbal abusive relationships and it kept me feeling inadequate I'm gonna go back a little bit of what my education when my mother was in jail my grandmother parented out of guilt she would not give us discipline she didn't give us rules she was like leave them kids alone and poor kids their mama ain't here leave them alone so we didn't learn authority figure rules stuff like that because my grandmother parented out of guilt so when the teachers or anybody tried to tell me what to do I wouldn't listen when the kids in school would teasing me and say my mother was in jail or on drugs I would hit and fight and um so that stopped me from going to school I stopped going to school in the sixth grade and when the truant officers would come to the house I'd run out the back door and I stayed on a run for many years because I've always had warrants always you know doing stuff like that I started getting into gangs because I needed um I needed people I needed people around me I needed places to stay so I would hang with people that were like me and half of their mothers didn't care if we were runaways and underage and stayed you know um my earlier years were spent locked up most of the time I probably spent One Summer out within the first five years of like my first time being locked up I was 12 in school fighting after that it went on so from 12 to maybe 16 I never really had a summer out of jail out of lockup because I was always doing something I was always violent always fighting I used weapons I don't want to get too deep in the weapons part but I did use weapons and I did have to serve time for some of those things because of the you know how drastic it was um I was so angry inside that I wanted other people to feel my pain so it didn't take much for me to pop off and I suffered every consequence I got pregnant at 18 17 had my first son at 18. and in my mind as I was growing I was learning that those things wasn't serving me I wasn't um I wasn't consistent but I didn't know how to not live that kind of life because I didn't have an education my mom was still on drugs and couldn't guide me and my aunts now my grandmother 17 kids only three didn't do drugs you know so it wasn't too many people that would you know put their arms around me and on my father's side they would try but because it was foreign to me that they were college educated they were you know all had their houses caused it was foreign to me so when I would go over there I felt out of place so I didn't really listen to them because I felt like they didn't understand so I rebelled a lot and after my first son his father pistol with me tied me up he would fight me just because he had a bad day and I remember saying once I get out of here I am never turning back now all this time I'm I'm doing drugs but people don't everybody don't know because I first started sniffing dope at 13 years old that was the first time I sniffed a bag of dope and I you know it was with in my CM within my family I didn't have to go to the streets to get it so it was easy for me to get in half I never knew about a habit even you know my step-grandfather that sniffed with me everybody that snitched with me never explained to me if you do this for three days you're gonna be physically addicted so once I got I found out I was pregnant I stopped doing that and um once I dropped that load I started again and when I started getting high again I remember my baby's father waking me up saying did you pee in the bed I said no he said well why is it all wet I was I sweated so bad everything started hurting me I felt like I had the flu 20 times worse and I didn't know what was going on I called my grandfather I was like what's going on I don't feel good I'm gonna have to go to the hospital no I went to the hospital first my baby's daddy called the um ambulance I went to the hospital they ran every test possible and they said nothing's wrong maybe you just have the flu so then I called my grandfather asking where you at you know I just got out the hospital I don't feel good I guess I got the flu and he laughed he said hey girl you got a little chipper that's okay come on over I got you and and I went there he gave me a bag of dope and I sniffed it and I felt better and I was like wow that was the first time I realized what a habit was before then it was just dipping and dabbing every now and then so from 18 on I was addicted fully and when I when I left my baby's father I gave my son I asked my aunt to keep my son for me because I had to call the police on him and they called DCF on me and I didn't want DCF to take my kids so I took my son and I went to North Carolina I brought my son there and I wrote a letter saying I give you temporary custody to sign papers or whatever but I need you to take him right now because I don't want DCF to take them so that's what happened but when my son got there in my head I felt like I'm going back and I said I just got to go to Boston and get the rest of our stuff and I'll be back but once I hit Boston I just kept running the drugs were more powerful so I left my son down there I will call every few months and I have to be honest about being who I was back then because for years I used to pull the my the war over my own eyes you know for years I used to make excuses now I have to be honest yes I was an unfit mother back then yes I was a no good friend yes I was those things so I'm gonna be honest about where I was when I'm telling the story you know so I'm not scared to be judged it is what it is um I was I I went running I was not a mother and I ended up getting pregnant again and I was actively getting high so I did not know I was pregnant because my period was already like missing and messed up so around four months when I found out I was pregnant I had to go on the methadone program so when I got on the methadone program I straightened up so that you know I didn't have any drugs in my baby system and DCF couldn't get involved and while I was pregnant I started taking GED classes I moved from Boston to Connecticut and I started getting my life together and um once I had the baby I felt like okay I'm doing good I was good for a couple of years I was working I um was taking classes I hadn't eventually got my own apartment and and I was doing good you know and then I don't know what was going on I still wasn't feeling um I wasn't feeling good inside about myself it was like I was still faking it I still didn't feel like I was worthy I felt like I just existed I didn't feel like I was Worthy so I would hide behind certain things and just um go to motion I just want the motion and that kept me stuck longer because I wasn't growing inside So eventually I end up doing a crime and I got locked up and when I got locked up DCF got involved and they took my my second son that's what the first DCF case I had and I ended up getting three years so this girl that I thought was my friend I asked her to take custody of my son until I got out because my grandmother and I was still working and they didn't want to do it I'm the fathers I'm the um son's daughter that's my father's side because my grandmother my mother's side had already passed away so my grandmother on my father's side also treated I felt different over there because I'm the father's um I'm her son's child and she didn't like my mom so her daughter's children she would treat bed they can have three cookies I could have a half a cookie stuff like that by making us feel different you know so I resented I resented a lot and I you know I just felt inadequate inside so I once they took my second baby I felt like I did not have nothing to live for and um I'm sorry let me back up a little bit while I was pregnant with my second son my mother I got a call saying that my mother had a heart attack and I had to go back to Boston and stay at the hospital they let me stay there because I was out of state and my mother ended up dying while I was pregnant with my second son so when I went back to Connecticut I just continued to feel empty and I continued to get high but as I was getting you know as I was in and out of programs I would gain information each time and I started thinking this is it I'm tired of this but how do I do it I felt like because I didn't have the education that I wasn't gonna be able to um to to be anybody or or survive and I went to this program I got pregnant again with my third child because I have four and I went into this program when I was pregnant with my daughter and I had went to a mother and child program so that when I gave birth I can have the baby with me and um when I did that I met this guy who worked for the methadone clinic I was outside smoking and he said he thought I was a staff member he was like oh hey what's your number and I gave him my number because he was cute and we exchanged numbers later on when he called the pay phone at the program and somebody else answered and called for me he was like where you at I said I'm at the program he said you're in the program I said yes so I said is that a problem and he said no so we continue to mess around and when I got off the program I moved in with him and when I moved in with him I started feeling different about who I was and he started making me feel like like he had my back he was loyal he believed in me and it helped me because I felt like okay somebody sees me you know somebody sees me so as time went I was clean I stayed clean for a couple of years but then I even though I was clean I still kind of lived the street life selling drugs doing robberies whatever so I didn't I stopped the drugs but I ended up doing a crime and when I did that crime I um I got a lot of time so I felt like I just met this guy he's not gonna stay they gave me 10 years so how is a man that I just met the first couple two years gonna stay with me you know and um but he did so I had to do four and a half years off that 10 and my daughter had at well when I went to jail my daughter ended up going with her father so when I came home I moved to another part of Connecticut to start fresh in I um really made the decision that I can't continue to live like this it's not serving me um jail ain't for me even though I can survive jail I it ain't for me you understand like if to to be there you got to know and some people they do make a revolving door but I just I couldn't deal with going to the bathroom in the same room as you sleep in and eat in and you're while you're eating your roommate gotta take a [ __ ] excuse my language take a poop I just couldn't deal with it and I I was trying I signed off for every program possible every Therapy Group everything I started reading books to build myself up and I said you know what even if I don't have the education I ain't dumb I can do this you know and I put it in my mind that you know I have to be My Own Strength but because I had a man that gave me a safety net yeah he was the stable one that made sure that I was gonna eat and everything he did everything for me so it made me feel safe enough to be able to rebuild myself without feeling embarrassed or ashamed but you know we had our trouble because um after I got out like maybe two years later I relapsed and he was angry so he started verbally abusing me and I would rebel against it and um finally I said you know what enough is enough well Dawn it's even now or never and I said do it for yourself and I did it I I got clean for myself and I looked at my little my last son I said you know what this ain't fear enough is enough you know while I do have people in my life that do love me and believe in me that's all I need to stand on don't care about the world don't be in competition with nobody just because somebody may have a a better car than yours don't mean they're a better person than you don't judge people off of materialistic things focus more on the inner her in the morals and the values and that's how I align myself you know I started going to church I never was consistent in church I believed in God but I never was consistent with praying with going to church it was only once a year Easter um I um only pray when I wanted to get out of trouble but then I had to sit back and realize how am I getting through the stuff that I'm getting through if it ain't for people praying for me and for God so I had to start giving him his props and when I started praying first and putting God first and going to church and donating my time because I don't got money but I can go and you know make plates at the food pantry or a soup kitchen or that's what I used to do you know and then I started getting jobs that was in the shelter so I can talk to the women and help them and stuff like that and I said well you know what I I I kept saying well what is my purpose I didn't know my purpose I didn't know nothing I was good at because I didn't have the education and I felt like you know somebody told me everybody has a purpose I never believed it because I didn't know where to look for a purpose but the purpose is within you it's your fire your passion you know and if you you know dig into that then you'll see your purpose out of that so that's where I realized my biggest purpose is to help people and to build people up and not to allow Society to hold them back or keep them down and I mean Society meaning the drug programs the doctors the methadone clinics because they help keep you sick longer you know and I have to speak on that because you can be on the methadone clinic and if you get a dirty urine they up your dose into a dope fiend up in your dough is a gift it's like yes I get higher free so it really don't help you you know what I mean and I felt like that wasn't for me I didn't want to stand in line every day going to get this little juice I just didn't want to do it so I made up my mind I asked God please give me the strength and the courage to get off of this this stuff and I asked him to detox me I detoxed off the methadone and I went through some some the last days were crucial you know but I did not turn back I did not turn back I was going to church at least three times a week church service Bible study and women's support group I was staying involved I was keeping myself around women that were positive that was real that um that you know that really my biggest thing is I have a a um a thing against materialistic people people that lead with what they have versus leading with how grateful that they have the things that they're able to have because of the blessings you know and um my kids I'm gonna um get ready to end this um but my kids my older set was angry with me for years the boys not so much but my one and only girl tortured me she would not talk to me I would I I'd go to her parties I call her she wouldn't answer I went to I I go to her graduation she would act like I was a stranger um I couldn't sit at the uh the table for the family and the important people she used to like make me feel and know that you was never a mother to me so you're not gonna get the mother Privileges and when I tell you that used to hurt me and as time went on she kind of kept that same energy unless she wanted something she would only call on me when she wanted money and I would you know if I had the money I would give it but I wasn't going to I had to let her know that I'm not gonna buy your love I apologize for being a a unfit mother for not raising you for making the choices I made I am so sorry you know for not being there for you but I always loved you always thought about you and I still love you and I will do anything for you but what I can't do is buy your love because I'm a broke bee I'll never be able to buy your love I'm sorry and I had to let her know you know um my kids make more money than me and they're younger than me but I'm proud that they do because they didn't have to live the life that I lived you know but my daughter has a certain kind of attitude like a woman old like some everybody owes her something you know and I can't deal with that because I've been off of drugs for um almost 20 years I've not been locked up in almost 15 years you're not gonna I can't keep getting punished over and over for what I've already try to make amends for and I already said sorry and I don't want to keep saying sorry because I think that my behavior and my change should show you how much I'm Sorry by trying to be a better person so that if anything goes wrong with you guys you got a home to come home to I'm here for you I got your back you know so our relationship has gotten better me and all the boys they call me four times a week they um they love me my boys tell me how proud they are of me um and my little one he keeps me grounded he reminds me every time I'm ready to slip and pop somebody in the head he reminds me um of how people ain't worth it and how far I've come and his face and his presence just reminds me of how I need to continue to stay on this path now I'm not gonna say I'm in recovery because I don't consider myself an addict now and and a A and N A they teach people that you're an addict for life I as an individual don't feel like that is n a important in a a absolutely to me that is the thing that helped me in the beginning n a n a a helped me for the first two years so that I had somewhere to go every day to meetings to hear something and and to keep me busy and focused so it did help me but I feel like for me I am not an addict there were some times in my life that I did some things and I no longer do them anymore it's not an option God has delivered me there's no such thing as relapses in my life it's not an option I can't even be fooled that way you know I know oh somebody died oh my God I'm gonna go get high that's not gonna bring the person back to life but it's going to get me back on the path of Destruction so that's why I say I'm not an addict for like people that claim to be addicts for life always have an excuse for relapse I don't it was sometimes in my life that I did some things and I don't know more and that's why I keep everything I talk about or any situation up front without any shame I had to pull needles out my mother's arms I still even when I was on drugs I didn't treat people mean now I did attack people but I didn't like conjure up to be evil to people you know and steal from people and do stuff like that so when I hear people say oh it's the way someone's raised or it's the no it's not all the time the way someone's race sometimes it's just who they are there are good and bad people in this world Point Blank period I believe there are Natural Born Killers I'm on the livers and I think that there are just those type of people and you just gotta have good discernment and you have to be aware and and just know who you involve or invite in your circle because people could suck the life out of you emotionally and mentally for their own game you know and if you're around people that throw things up in your face from your past or something you told them you know because they want to make themselves feel a little better than you then you don't need to be around those people stick with the winners and another thing I must say um sometimes when I'm on these panels it takes everything out of me not to flip out because some of the things that I would like to feel like I'm in a room with a bunch of Democrats I'm just saying I know that's unrealistic but when I hear people um you know come against our black women the way that they do um because they think they're better than because of materialistic things it really it it screwed it messes with my mind because you may feel like because you got a college degree over there and you got a house and a car but is your house a home that's all I gotta say I'm finished trending I love you guys thank you for listening to me and I hope someone somewhere out there um learned from my story that even if you don't have the education even if you don't think you're the most beautiful person in the world to other people know that you are beautifully and wonderfully made that you don't have to keep up with the Joneses go at your own pace everything happens in the time that it needs to happen and we will all get if you put it out there and put in the work we can also have anything our heart desires and that's why I want to open up not just shelters I want to open up drug programs and family shelters and individual shelters because I want my program to be spiritually based I don't want people to think that they have to take medication for the rest of their life sometimes you do I'm not blind to that but sometimes that's a crunch and that's why even with my PTSD even with my bipolar even with my um my my my other thing I got going on in the beginning I had to take medication but now I'm weaned off of medication I might sometimes have to take something for sleep but overall I'm allowed I feel my feelings if I'm happy I I can smile I can laugh if I'm sad I can cry when I was on those medications I was numb you know but at least it got me to a point where I can now deal with things using other tools so I'm not against medication but I just don't want to drill in people's head that that's always the answer long term thank you guys thank you Ladon and honestly Ladon I'll tell you what I'm just I'm just in the passenger seat because y'all surround me y'all found I mean I kind of found you because I was seeing you on Chit Chat and stuff but y'all found me and so I'm just like let go and let guy because you know you have a story I have not heard I have not met someone that's lived your life before so I'm sitting up here like getting out of my head about what do I ask her what do I say first of all we have so many women they're they're quoting scriptures in there I tried to highlight them as I saw them um they're giving you such wonderful words of encouragement and I'm like thank you yes and just I think I'm just supposed to sit here and absorb um I do want to tell you thank you it's a special kind of vulnerable to speak about things like that especially once you start talking about things that could have brought you shame and that you end up thinking you have to hide but now it's like your strength to give somebody else strength um and a lot of times people and I try to be so careful because you never know someone's past and what they went through so like the strong words that sometimes people use you got to remember there's probably a woman or person in the same room that they may have had to do some things and you don't know what led to it I I like this too because it opens up the different experiences and I'm just thankful because all I can do is process this honestly like um and you know what trendy too you know um we need people to pour more into people than to um and I'm not saying because I got to keep it up front everybody don't deserve Grace and I'm gonna be honest everybody don't deserve Grace I ain't gonna sit here and I'm not gonna be faking nothing you know I didn't want to go in too many details and detailed detail because we are on a live stream and I can say but so much but um you gotta uh know when people are the wrong people to be around and you have to look at what people would do because you know somebody said it but uh like last month I think somebody said something about um if you want to know who a person is look at who their friends are and that is true because when we was on a thing about coleslaw and they said well somebody said something about well if your friend was such a I said well no it wouldn't be my friend because none of my friends would mess with married men and I'm gonna say that and if they did they wouldn't tell me it would be a secret from me because they already know my moral compass my moral makeup I don't I'm not fooled by a couple of good things and then you do a couple bad things you can do you can have five good things and two bad things with those two bad things could be so great yeah you understand so that's why I judge people based on their morals and their values and how they move and what they would do when there's good times bad times raunchy times them slickery times because we all still gotta do a little something sometime to survive but it's the way you go about doing it I knew prostitutes that had more class than people that never even was on their knees okay yeah seriously but they had to do what they had to do I just thank God I had other hustles you know but I still was in that life pimps and holes you know my father a number of pimps you know I was in that life you know and my father's still alive and he he just got out well he's been out two years now he did 15 this last bit so he's home now but he's doing good he's married and I'm proud of him also even at his age you know yes that's good yes I wanted to ask you since you you did bring up at least coleslaw so I feel like I think it's appropriate to ask you how do you think about Kiki handling her recovery and things like that because the show the show can be really triggering it seems to her mental health and I know she seemed like she was on a type of methadone treatment from how she answered Tisha yeah she actually I listened to a couple of her things she actually was saying that she was on it I listened to one of her lies and she said she was trying to wean off actually okay she is in the process of weaning off I think she needs to be more um more Cut Throat with them I think she needs to take her power back and and puff her chest out and say yeah I'm on it and guess what I'm doing good and I'm helping getting that I would come harder with them because they still think that's a weakness for her right and that can trip her up right right I think yeah I agree I agree on your stuff eat them up with it say yup I sure am I go every day and I get and I get urines and they all be clean right right that's how I would be coming at them and shut them down then they won't have nothing else they could never say it again right right their power I think they take her um I almost want to say the word professionalism because I feel like she has to use that even though tisha's family they take her professionalism as a weakness instead of her trying to send them Grace's house yes because she is giving them Grace she is yeah yeah okay I'm Ladon do you mind if anyone does want to come up and oh yeah you know this is this is the trendy trial we in here come on up Babes okay I'm dropping the link and y'all just have to show me yourself on camera in the background I will not hit go until you get off camera so make sure to turn your camera back off so I can bring you up if I just have to make sure it's not a troll or anything yeah you know why I was late too because we got different time zones yeah yeah you thought it was six of your time wait what what are you what what's your I'm Massachusetts so right now it is 6 46. that's mine oh yeah I was listening to you know you know that um I was listening to that girl um [ __ ] they got arrested on YouTube for beating up that girl's shell oh God I just ran across this YouTuber um I should get her name but uh what is her name oh my God and she was doing all these lives and she's a lesbian and she was having her girlfriend beat up this mentally challenged girl and I kept saying why are they letting her do this like everybody was calling from all over the country calling the police they finally kicked the door in on live and they was asking the girl are you okay but she Stockholm syndrome saying am I right nothing's wrong with black eyes you the girl was busting in oh it's terrible people are mean and evil out here wow I don't feel like like you know when people don't pray for them they need prayer I ain't praying for you I can see y'all you can turn your cameras off if you don't want to be on camera girl Ladonna did not hear about that that is crazy what is that girl name um oh well I Don't Wanna Know okay y'all go ahead and put myself on mute I'm over here live laugh love comment got hello everyone I just wanted to say admire your story and thank you for um being brave enough to tell it and share with us you're welcome and I've been wanting to see uh trending talk to trees I'm just so happy to see trending on here hello everybody well y'all a few days ago I fell and chipped my friend TV messed myself up so pray that the dentist Bill don't hit me that high but I'm listening in in the Tennessee I'm a little scared who but yeah pray for y'all pray for me and I pray for y'all I'ma drop down and still listening and listening to chat but I really admire your story and I really appreciate you standing out I was reading the comments in the chat and it was beautiful foreign like they can't walk upstairs they can walk well I came up because I didn't do a lot of commenting in the chat because I was over here I had to get myself together because you like literally took me out when you talked about how you apologized to your children because I never got that I never got that and it was when I went through it with my parents it was at a pivotal moment in my life and I never got that and I just I felt it and I I kind of understand what your daughter was going through because it took me to like literally maybe 10 years ago or so or more recent to just be able to deal with my mother and just not use that bias that I had and that was my teenage years when all this happened and I I just want to say thank you for that because I most of the people that I know that have dealt with that with their parents they do not get an apology and it's really it's really a thing that we I've talked to with other people about how their parents just literally say this didn't happen and that didn't happen and this didn't happen that didn't happen like I know I wasn't the one on drugs so I remember very vividly some things so it's like that that part right there and you know I talk to you all the time and that part right there just took me out because and you don't use any excuses on like how you were raised even though we know that is a part of what goes on with people or especially when you're a young age you do things you don't use that as an excuse right and you know that it affected you but you don't absolutely absolutely like we've talked about that before you don't use it and I really admire that about you because generally that's the first thing a lot of people go to and I also admire the fact that you're not always smacking somebody over the head with the Bible but I know you're spiritual and you do believe and you do pray you prayed yourself through it I always got that from you like I have always got that from you from day one I told you when I first saw you and we talked about that too because because of everything that I went through as a younger kid I pray for a lot of people that I don't just tell them or they don't know that I'm praying for them like I could hear something and just pray for somebody but I always like to well how I feel about it is I pray for a lot of people but I just lead a Grace up to God that's for God to give you Grace I'll just put it out there that this is what I'm seeing I feel like and if you if God sees fit to bless you the way he's blessed me well we it's out there that's how we feel about it we need that though Shin everybody can't be like me because if that's the case people wouldn't have prayed for me you know what I mean so you know we do need people to pray for other people you know absolutely that is nothing wrong with that and if somebody say it is then they crazy because every somebody's always praying for each other or somebody you just get the pick you know and I just want to say that I appreciate you telling your whole story because that was a lot that I didn't know and I appreciate it and it it the the point that really was good that I liked was how you came off the methadone because some people do use that as a crutch and they stay on it for a really really really long time so I thought that was beautiful and you don't have to and I feel like I feel like it's like I kind of feel like you on the fact that when you go into NAA they say oh you're always an addict no no because at this particular moment in time I'm not doing those things you know right so what am I looking forward to is I'm always going to be an addict like and you know them doctors and lawyers when they be having a certain kind of parties they'll be doing their little toot toot here and there was a point in a time that they did some stuff and they just don't know more right right all right exactly exactly exactly well that's all I wanted to say I just I'm just sitting over here like oh that was a lot and it wasn't even my story yeah that was Ladon thank you well I appreciate it I took I took notes I just like I don't know if like you know once you purge it I don't know if you like want to revisit I was taking notes on some things but you had a lot going on in your short years Ladon oh yes I admire you and it was deeper than that I didn't even touch on my Burns you know I didn't want to ask I didn't want to ask because I mean think about it if somebody 17 kids right yeah 17 kids all of them ain't gonna be normal some it's gonna be some mental illness down there some this some that my uncle um had a serious problem with take um um violating people you know and I was raised to have a big mouth you scream yell kick bite you know so when he when I woke up and felt the grope and I started kicking and screaming so he didn't get to you know do nothing but the the aftermath when my mother came in the next morning and I told her what happened when her brother walked in they started fighting and my mother was cooking pork chops trying pork chops but you know when we make our gravy we put we use the grease yeah yes that we fried the meat in to make our gravy well he took that part and flung it and I was in the way because I'm like gonna hit my mother you know jumping in yeah and eat through that in both my arms from top to bottom got third degree burns on them wow thank God it didn't get on my face but for years in the summer I would not wear short sleeves I was so embarrassed and ashamed I would be sweating outside with long sleeves on and you know kids are cruel ew what's that on your arm you know so yes kids y'all saw your you have locks right Little Don oh yeah yeah I gotta retwist I gotta retwist tonight hey that's you got a lot of hair yeah thick pretty hair yes because I'm going to that that um hoe down the mall so I got it I forgot what she called I'm calling it a hotel because I know all them little young girls gonna have next to nothing on with them cowboy boots yeah yeah yeah that's smothered pork chops ain't it that's what that is um we're from I'm from my family's from Louisiana Texas so you know what I'm talking about yes you're talking about I didn't eat pork chops for years because of that that mentally messed with me I don't I still I don't know if years will be long enough I definitely understand that's uh-uh that's crazy I would not eat but I would eat pork but not pork chops now I eat it here or near but you know people and he just got out you know um he when he did that to me he ended up running off to New York to stay at one of my aunt's house to hide out and he ended up on a live in my other Aunt down there so he went when I tell you people are born away that's why when you know some people say like how Shannon said I don't use certain things as an excuse yeah you know what I mean because um he did that he unalived her and he went away for like 25 almost 30 years and he just got out last year but he has to stay in New York because of he got parole so he can't come to mass yet but my other Aunt y'all talk to him talk to him I said I don't really want to talk to him you know like I'm not there okay just guess your brother you forgave him for the things that he's done you understand either I don't I don't don't push me and I said and she gave him my number um and I said you know first of all everybody know even the people in Boston don't see me that much because I live in the boonies now people ask wizard though how's it going oh she's good yo you gotta not don't you give my number out to them right right it's my number out to them folks right when I say I'm too good and then one girl I used to hang with she's gonna um argue me in the street oh you think you better than me now I said no honey I don't think I'm better than you I think I'm too good for a lot of things that you do though like sitting in a Crock house I'm too good to be sitting in a crack house I'll take that all day long right 41 fit you there hey fit hey you want mute she might be also doing something well let me see hey hey oh sorry sorry I put it I was like you might not want to be off mute so I took it sorry she got that morning drive hey hey we can hear you before you see okay I can hear you you got such a smooth silky voice I know it's like jazz [Laughter] buddy then I get uh then I'll start twerking in the chat y'all a mess oh my god did you uh did you want to say anything I wanted to say this to you Ladawn I admire your strength thank you getting them hot flashes told you I'm going through the change of life I thank you for everything that you provided thank you I don't know what is a delay I'm wondering why there's a delay give me one second y'all okay okay can you hear me can you hear me I hear you I don't hear echo or anything I just hear you okay okay I don't know it's like it's like all types of stuff going on but I just wanted to say to you Ladon that I appreciate everything that you gave on tonight um and I'm reminded of what it says in the Bible that we're healed by the blood of the lamb and the word of Our Testimony um I know for sure that this story that you're that your testimony is going to heal people your testimony is going to set people free because you're free you are free you're not bound by your past because your past you are who you are right now um there is I remember I forgot you know I was on channel but not everybody I ain't gonna say that but that being said I remember sharing your voice for the first time and there is such power and authority in your voice so I want to say to you Ladonna when the Lord permits speak because people are listening their list now I am so sorry that you do everything you've been through Ladawn and I say um but I know that God gives us Beauty for anxious he gives us joy for sadness and he gives us a Garment of Praise and that beautiful face that I just saw you don't look like what you've been through amen I thought I used to think I was ugly and I just said um are you using 7th Avenue I just need to know I'm waiting for my I'm waiting for my order at all right I just wanted to say he was on continue to be strong continue saying that the things that we're lacking is others and because you have that deep down on the inside of you but you're also wise and you have off the charts discernment you don't play with people us people from the Northeast us people from the north we we can't we can afford to be trampled on and uh for people to take advantage of us and being said because you have such so much you are so sweet thank you guys I love y'all we love you too you know I love you girl yeah you know and Shane again she that tough exterior too so yeah and thank you foreign thank you for uh being in the chat too and helping me I really appreciate that especially when it's on some sensitive topics I really am trying to make sure I because uh you know I don't zone out I'm not focused on one part too much so thank you very much for that as well um uh uh Phyllis said you're gonna love Seventh Avenue uh Ladon because she said she ordered four times I can't wait and then the lips oh I can't wait I can't wait my daughter and I'm trying to get my groove back here and [ __ ] I've been out of commission for a long time thank you all right now Don don't get out there and be for the streets like Halle Berry now come on well no that's what dancers stay in the streets don't wipe them don't wipe them right [Laughter] oh yes [Music] I I sorry no I think I said was Sean said what's your cash app logon sorry oh um money sign d for Dawn the number four is that okay is this it Ladonna piping it don't use this y'all until she tells me this is it but is this it yes okay exactly all right don't say it but she doesn't want to be saved I believe laugh look crazy you know that's why it hurt me you know I ain't bringing up too much when people pretend to be on the same wavelength because people are listening to us and you can learn from each and every person no matter what Walk of Life you can take something from somebody's life and when people put their cells out there and people play games with it they better be lucky the internet is in between us yeah amen I'll tell you too my when I first started my channel my husband asked me he was like so you're gonna go live he was like so you're not just gonna post a video and walk I was like I thought so but I said I really I've been you know I was just like that it's like it just depends on your intentions when you do it but when I was listening to the panels before I would come up it was like I was kind of getting to know y'all to get comfortable enough you know what I mean so I feel like I don't know like these ladies like I would love to get uh you know a response back speaking to them to let them know like I hear you you know what I mean it's a is a huge risk but it's okay it's worth the risk trendy yeah because you're helping more than it can hurt you know what I mean some things are worth the risk yeah you know I am so glad you um did this that you went forward and you did your page and you are going to continue it on it's going to get bigger and you know we're here for the Long Haul yeah and I'll tell anybody with fear it's okay it's natural feeling but don't let it stop you you still go through the fear work through it and still do what your heart is set out to do yeah that's so true that social is hard to actually live it but it's such true words you know [Music] I got something once I actually get it submitted I'll let y'all know because you know Melody didn't taught us to move in silence so it's something I can't wait to share with y'all and I just can't wait to share um but yes that whole getting past that Fear Part you know but yeah you I I have to say without it especially after this it's so crazy it's only been like a few days not even maybe a week and I just want to thank you again that you're still here and thank you and thank y'all that are still here in the chat on the panel thank you because yeah fear is a heck of a thing man yes it is um I'll drop the link again just to make sure I didn't miss anybody that may want to come up um you talk about fear I'm 50 years old right I've been driving all my life I don't have three cars my aunt and nothing else just put the car in their name in my field but that's how they do right but I kept getting caught without a license so the money was building up so finally I said I'm just not gonna do it I'm not gonna drive until I get a license so I finally stopped and I paid off all the money and when I went to go do my license I was so nervous I'm like girl you act like you didn't own cars and trucks and like you ain't never drove in a getaway driving some more stuff girl act like you know about the Dukes of Hazard part hold on is it Darius that's my son yeah okay John was asking okay yeah you ain't talking about the Dukes of Hazard part of the driving listen I didn't get 10 years for nothing yeah my little sticks and stuff yeah you had to see New Jersey Drive the first time I learned how to drive was in a stolen car and I know the people that woke up the next day seen their cars on one side and the road messed up but I learned did you drift did you ever Driftwood I told you what I did well I got in the weeks they stole the car I got it and they was like all right you drive down so I was like but I don't know they said just just when you want to go this way turn that way I said all right and I was going straight good and then all of a sudden all the cars that was parked on that side was things also when they woke up the next day all them like seven cars on that side of the street was all messed up mirrors down chaplies I said Lord thank you Jesus you gave me some beautiful wonderfully made kids my none of my kids get in trouble not one of my thank you and that's a blessing that's something you know what because you pray for them babies yeah and they were taught your husband taught them well and they had beautiful people in their lives and we bumped that mess and my poor daughter she wouldn't survive anyway she's so sheltered she ain't never had a fight in her life stripping cars stripping girl please you mean hot wiring oh look I still miss it about to pay the paint like because she you know you know like you said you said you didn't go go away for nothing ran into an amp truck I knew better however God is Awesome learning 12 Phillips wow and Jordan I agree doubting yourself is the same class as fear in my thing you're right yeah as soon as the doubt come from except to be maybe afraid of selling yeah not doing good did you try to come up or is this a troll I don't think you're a troll live laugh love but I'm trying to see if you actually tried to come up or not I'm gonna just go ahead and kick them and then when I see your answer I'll let you back up if it's you but I don't think oh she said it's her all snap okay I'll let you up live laugh love just turn your camera on real fast I won't put you up until you turn your camera back off if the zombie apocalypse happened we going to Don right because you got to be able to hotwire a car the car and get away you know right yeah but nowadays I don't even make the cars like that no more right what'd you say yeah did y'all see about the Kias and the kids yeah and the uh Chrysler 300s used to be like that too oh kids y'all you got Google it ain't gonna say because they're gonna be like I ate it now but y'all the kids and um was it certain Nissan's well it was something else but if you look up kids getting broken into and how they were doing it and I'm talking about 2022 it's crazy and I don't know why they haven't even did something Nikita about that because when the price is 300 everything yeah because when the Chrysler 300s were being done like that here because you know we got the plants here people are doing that to the Chrysler 300 they made them change out the ignitions or something so that that shouldn't even be a thing they should be making them do something different um yeah it's the Hyundai that's what it was kids and Hyundai's thank you Professor Damita Joe heard about it they made Madison yeah boys Phyllis know what I'm talking about the kid boys okay I'm about to add you Jazzy Kia boys yes listen if there is a will we gonna make a way we believe in you Hallelujah [Laughter] you know what um true story I'm still married we've been separated for a while but you know covering my y'all I fell so hard hit my teeth and they cleaning and fix it real fast I was scared yeah I'm praying for my brother y'all fell so hard the other day looking for my debit card and listen to the dirty clothes I fell through the dirty clothes happy and hit my mouth on the night then y'all I can't afford these vehicles that you know scared to go I was praying all day when yeah everything worked out fine y'all for me I guess these exes are good for something huh I felt so hard I was scared I've been praying I can't afford no didn't it beer right now about um adultery and all of that so that's still a control but also because it's so good well yeah still got the benefits and I think guys because I know you ain't supposed to live in sin but I got my legal eagle up here don't you only have to wait them out so long as they refuse to sign your state but Don can you verify you got Sean's cash out I just want to be sure oh where's my phone depends on each state but these are the three Yeah in our state if you file we we have I like that stuff we were talking about about Halle Berry they don't have no contest the uh divorce you have to find out if your state no fault I mean no fault state you have a no fault and you you feel you file in nine months you should have one but it depends and that's another thing like it's so much stuff that's State the state that makes it like wow like like some people can tie you up forever just trying to get a divorce if if you and one of these states like Alabama has some weird laws too that's why males going through what she's going through California has some weird laws that's where I'm at right now thank you guys who sent the cash app thank you so much yes and Murray Murray oh okay hold on I don't know I don't see that they might have a different name from their YouTube right because I don't think I've seen this either this person's thing neither that's so sweet thank y'all for being here again for blessings so it's from the people oh I enjoyed listening I had the value but while they were working on my brother it was fast they cleaned up but I enjoyed listening I love to hear uh women supported women yeah it made me feel so good I'm so proud of you trending because I was looking for you but I see you had posts but I was missing I was looking for you like Trinity need to be on live I don't see her no more thank you 30 minute warning anymore for me oh my god oh thank you and I'm so happy to find you I said we'll find you in the middle of dinner's work but thank God thank God you're here because you know thank you yeah uh well I'll just say my part I don't want to speak on something else that someone might have said in confidence but yeah it was some trouble night sleeping and again all I'm gonna keep saying is thank you because you have to see past a lot of what's I guess face value you know so just thank you Jazzy I hope you're doing better Shane I hope you're doing better with Don I hope you're doing better live laugh love I hope you're doing better yes ma'am um I actually uh I'm doing better now because before I wasn't because I was holding so much in I couldn't say what I wanted to say to that person yeah but I finally that person finally um called me back so I was able to release my she's in it I'll tell you about later Trinity but I went off um and I feel good yes God is good I feel good after her release too no change membership thank you lady queen thank you and it's so cute I asked her is it it'll say to your lady and she said her grand I think grandson put an extra letter in there thank you and Lady Queen tomorrow I'm drawing Nubian themed lips so you'll get the free art because you joined okay so and we're having a watch Alone come up soon thank you so much God is good thank you lady queen yeah trendy look Don did a reenactment for me so I can't wait to hear this I need to be patched in because I need this feeling on YouTube neighbors think about me let me tell you about my neighbors I don't care where I live right in the beginning they don't know maybe they'll call the cops one time in the beginning because I'm so loud right but then after they get the picture like listen I'm from the hood the projects go up to the 20th flows the bells broke we yelling so I'm loud so don't be calling the car sticking there's always something going on so if they see me outside yelling and screaming they just be like oh she's just going through it I was going out foreign [Applause] [Laughter] you know absolutely Grace to God because I can't give it at all because you know what I used to do you have been graceless to those that you you know you felt deemed it to to allow it Shan because I do feel like you offer Grace I don't know yeah I think it's Grace I think it's more of me just saying okay well don't had that conversation last night because I I was about to pop off and she was like I I saw it but I'm like yeah yeah move on like yes yeah is that Kevin said she got a shirt like I'll say but you can still get these hands yes I love that I love that I want that shirt oh my God you know I used to work at Macy's and I left in handcuffs really and I dodged I said Dodge I thought I was an acrobat look it was sore the next day knowing I got arthritis going through my bones good oh my gosh trendy I love those afternoon little Clips you do you like them when you ask us the questions we're guilty or not I love those things I love them too I said oh I hope they like these because about these little situations and it's and and you learn to because you'd be surprised because some of the things I felt like should have happened was it what really happens yeah yeah yeah and of course is that lawyer I'd almost say I won't say lawyers opinion but how he would interpret the law on some stuff because I see he's like if you have a good lawyer and you know we got Legal Eagles saying clarifying stuff on there but I just always [Laughter] you getting sued you get it soon I we're gonna keep them coming cause those are so funny you would be surprised how much I have actually almost been to small claims court because people didn't realize that I know what I'm doing I don't know but I don't need no lawyer to fly my paperwork I fill out my own paperwork they get it in the mail and generally they call and say okay well we blah blah blah okay okay because generally in most places well I'll say my local place is only it used to be 19 but it's 35 to file a small claims lawsuit okay oh really yeah and in most situations you get no I got a case no States you get between three and six thousand dollars just depends on what your suit is about so if you hey I'll be like oh you up okay I gotta go down the street um I was gonna take this lady to um to Judge Milian People's Court because my friend last year my friend's birthday so I was like um I had went to my aunt's friend's funeral and the person that cooked the food when I tell you that fried chicken I was like oh my God this stuff the food was so good so I was like oh you cater she was like yes so I said give me your number I'll throw you some some um client some work you know so when when my friend's party came I remember I had that lady's number so I called her can you make me um two pins the big silver pans of fried chicken because other people were bringing stuff too and then I wanted two pans of potato salad two pans of mac and cheese 500 600 dollars I gave her a deposit 200 first and then at the end when she brought the food I gave her the rest now when when I tell you she was an hour and something late oh wow I was late in the time I gave her I still even gave her more time because I told her before the party was really starting I gave her the time exactly so once she got there and was so late um when I opened up that damn chicken thing [Music] that chicken was soggy it wasn't the same chicken that um the same cook the same fried the same way no way it wasn't the same hands so then I was like called her back like yo this is nasty like what is like oh this is nasty I want my money back you know and then she was like because I bought the chat I sent her the deposit so she can buy the chicken and the stuff you know so then I called my aunt and said ask David that woman that um Patricia lady did she make that chicken and that food at that um wait well David said no she helped the lady um set up and stuff but she wasn't the actual one that actually did the cookie so she frightened me she made me feel like no money back yes so I want to take her to small claims court to get my money back saying about Mr believe that you can run into our project when you couldn't so that's exactly what they were but they was just gonna say forget it and they just paid somebody to fix your stuff but since you want to sue me back buddy yeah and when you go to court make sure you get a notarized letter from your uncle or whoever that hired the other person that says exactly what you just said it would even be better if you could get the lady to give you a notarized letter saying that she helped her she didn't actually cook it right because she won out the door you know how people are shared when I asked my oh I said they uh my aunt told David go down there and get her exact address you know um so she'll know how to fill out the paper she'll have the the correct information and he was like oh man oh man I want to get involved in that I don't want to get involved man I was like you know what y'all people are something else man like it's wrong why wouldn't you want to just anyways I don't need you as a witness just get the B's name in the right door number for me that's it all right wow but I could find them because I know the general I know the building yeah and stuff like that and I know her first name and they they've represented under that business before so you probably can find similar testimony somewhere it wasn't no business it was an in-home like I'm in the hood girl I told you that's the in-home catering and it's still somebody she didn't do this y'all had a business she might have had a business name to it um um trendy you're right on Facebook I think yeah see she might have just presented herself like that to somebody else too that's what trending talking about like if she did the same thing like portrayed the food to be hers to somebody I was so embarrassed I was so embarrassed I was so embarrassed because you could hear people at the other tables oh this is nasty guys I was like this mother that was so embarrassed I was like oh my God yeah I got beat okay yeah it's usually nothing to follow the only thing that I will tell people about small claims court and judgments is they that's why I would take her on TV actually but because if you go to a small place I was going against a business so I knew how to collect my money I know how to do it myself so and every state is different so the the problem with small claim score is they'll give you a judgment but if you have to go and hire a company like these um collections agencies they only gonna give you like what it is now but it used to be like something like 45 Cent on a dollar or something crazy so I was doing it against companies who I knew how to go get my own money so if you doing it against a person I would take her to Judge Mathis or whoever is right there that's not too far from y'all judge Miller young right I will take her there yeah because I think she is on the East Coast so I would take her just million hey you definitely will win even if it's just your aunt or whoever's saying that my husband hires such as my aunt was there she Witnesses she'll tell the truth okay yeah because she was like she represented herself I'm a Brophy I can't nobody just keep taking my like you just you robbed me without a a pow pow like I feel like a chunk like you just took my money and gave you a garbage I know you would definitely make TV you would definitely want a TV she'd be a highlight real I'm serious I was like what she just brought me with a blah blah like I feel like a scissor knuckle no a 41 feet she called it nowadays folks are stealing money in the form of deposits for hair styling when I tell you I know it's some good ones out there well I tell you I'm so tired of Instagram hairstylist I am so tired of them at this point I told I told my husband I said I'm gonna start paying for if they don't have like I'm gonna pay a deposit on the smallest service like Let It Be Like A a wash right or whatever and I'm interviewing them like no don't don't get the water ready I just want to talk to you because I want make sure you know how to deal with natural hair because everybody don't know how to handle it even though you got the same hair as me you know you know what also when you do your deposit and see a lot of stylist around here because my daughter I do my own hair I do my own natural hair but my daughter she does the stuff all that stuff the girls doing now so when she does when she goes to somebody I always do the deposit like they use style seat here a lot so when you use it make sure whatever service they use it I want to use my American Express because American Express will give you your money back with the quickness if you get there and that person didn't know what they was talking about or if they like myself give you the runaround yeah my sister went to a girl she never showed up she sat there and waited on that guy their address you know a day or two prior to your uh appointment and they never send them yes yes I've been lucky but I've encountered sketchy I have I just got lucky enough to go right back to American Express and get your money back like making my money back and they'll give it back you don't even have you just tell that person like you know this wasn't right you ask for your money back if they don't give it back get you some kind of if you got text messages screenshot them and put drop them in online and American Express here you go back and get your stuff right back yeah lady queen a lot of people won't even do your hair without you paying a deposit and they got fifty thousand fifty eleven rules on what they need from you and they break their own rules like showing them did it all girl and that's what I'll be saying about the girl that the girl that do my daughter hair she be washing her hair I'm like why is you washing your hair oh they don't wash hair for the foreign yeah okay this hairstyle is here she on her page it says do not be late do not bring anybody this was the first time my daughter ever went and got some extensions or whatever they don't even breathe don't breathe bring me don't be late don't be late because if you like your appointment could be canceled or I may charge you 25 or like like don't bring anybody with you um wear your hair washed wash your hair um it was another outrageous and I was like is she serious okay so everybody blow it out probably blow it out they want to blow it out too probably yeah we get there at 8 8 A.M because I always like to be the first appointment because I I'm OCD about weight because if you know how hairstyles is my appointment at 10 I've been sitting here since 9 45 and it's it's 11 30 and you ain't finished with home girl I got a problem but so we get there eight o'clock the donut don't like my daughter call her she didn't answer my daughter text her she didn't answer 15 minutes later I'm like you know what we about to just go my daughter I need my hair and I need my hair all right I'm waiting there and I'm like oh I'm only giving her half hour so she finally takes my daughter back I'm so sorry I overslept so I'm like okay so now are we able to charge you a late fee because you would have been charged into Lacey or canceling an appointment right okay so my juicy 45 minutes late she pull up she got two kids with her I'm like they extra like what are they doing here like at this time my daughter was a minor I was in high school and I'm like no extra people so we get in there and I'm like I almost wanted to leave my daughter so I'm like because them kids was getting on my nerves and that's why I know that's why you talking about no extra people I get that so it goes for me and you because your kids is getting on my nerves right right and I'm already irritated because you 45 minutes late yeah and they always around the corner for 45 minutes after she did my I waited till she did my daughter hair because of course you know I'm not gonna say no more she and my baby head so when she finished with her hair I said you know what if my daughter comes back to you I will not be with her one and two if she ever come here on an appointment at you late like this and all this other stuff going on she won't be back and that service will be free because she one of the ones that wanted to deposit an artist and all that and I will after you do her hair call American Express Center I was not happy with that and give me half off I want to ask you for this because I'll ask them because American Express will give it to me they have they've given me discounts on something like like I've gotten orders from big companies and it's not what it said is and I don't return the stuff I just keep it and I say you know what I'm gonna keep it today what it what it was supposed to be but you know I'll keep it I might be able to use it so I uh because they sent me something other and I take pictures and I download them on the computer and I make my little complaint and remember said yeah honey you'll have get your 50 off or whatever and I ain't never been crossed by America Express once they finish their investigation they give me my 50 Cent off I got it and never comes back at all so I'm like you know what I don't I don't I spend a lot of money and I expect I like quality stuff and if I'm spending my money with you because my hard-earned money that I heard over all the years I was working I expect to get what I pay for because I like nice stuff and I don't buy myself a lot of stuff all the time so when I finally do break down and buy myself something nice I want what I want right right right right that's fair Ladon please follow through with your claim no yeah girl I'll meet you at Lillian courtroom I believe that lady look I think she turned me off on Fried Chicken now because I ain't been here I have not I will not cook for eat no Fried Chicken lately hi Nikki give me Pinky who wants some spaghetti Fried Chicken and just in case you want to come up pinky I'll drop it for you oh my God okay let me go through my notes real fast I just wanna see yes it is um no I don't know because I don't want to go backwards I don't want I wrote them down but I don't want to ask I ain't gonna ask no because I love how you I don't want to I don't want to make it go backwards been in this business over 30 years I treat people the way I want to be treated I would have taken her non-cooking eight Accord lady queen okay yeah yeah that's not right you don't do that people don't got a problem with lying girl they'll just be saying yeah your face what a straight face yeah and the gloves and everything uniforms you look behind that table serving I was like oh cosplaying that's someone that knew how to continue okay Pinky just turn your camera on but I won't put you up on camera I just need to see to make sure hey okay I see that's too much did you see me I saw you pinky okay all right hi guys hello pinky if you can watch the replay later you know wait now now you can hear me better right you sounded good both times you sound you sound good yeah how everybody doing okay hello hello yes I can't wait to uh see what y'all what we're talking about today you're okay we didn't jump everywhere so first of all if whenever you get the chance to watch the replay Ladon told as much of her story as she can tell in a public forum you know it was very good I know it's gonna help people that have heard it um so you know we've been waiting on Ladon so I would say watch that then we have segued into the fact that somebody allegedly scammed Ladon because they were pretending they could cook and they couldn't and they tried to cater they was late and they couldn't cook and so for her she's she's trying to get on uh Judge Milian for small claims and shares The Legal Eagles that she'll help her oh my love sorry oh my God no uh Miss pinky you don't play around with black folks um Fried Chicken but I don't know how to cook it up look well at least you admitted it yeah exactly she's not trying to make nobody pay her for it yeah I don't know nothing about cooking wow I'd start my uh my stove and it stares at me I'm not traditionally uh a cook like that myself I'm not uh and I'm blessed to be with someone that don't care and they but he mostly snacks anyway he didn't even like that that's right I know how to cook but I don't like to cook I know how to cook I could cook a little bit everything just to make sure but I would love to eat my daughter I just uh ordered a Mediterranean or something I don't know yeah and I never had it in my life ain't that the healthy stuff yeah chickens hummus oh no salad and I was trying like you trying to put me on a diet it's mostly a lot of garlic based food yeah food but she was eating it up oh the meter don't say she a great cook the meter I know this has nothing to do with nothing but your voice makes me think you're a great cook yeah on Debbie's voice too it looks like she'd be throwing it down in the kitchen you sound like she could you can turn it back off I'm not gonna put you up until you turn your camera back off oh I got Lady Queen in the back she's uh she's a new trendy tribe member oh okay yeah I'm just making sure it's her before I because I you know how how it happens pinky we got a video I have one this morning I have one I booted them they ain't trying to come back up because I never let them actually have access thank goodness well I had one last night to have one this morning and I didn't like the uh person last night and they wanted her to come up on the panel I said oh no we ain't doing that no more not doing it not doing it and then this morning we had I'm not doing that and live life be careful when because I know you haven't been doing too many panels lately but just being careful make us pop on the camera say something with our voice something like do not well if you say black people say something with their voice put a banner up because then you're okay if you careful yeah yeah um succeeding because my last guess what you're saying let me answer this uh call right quick okay Pinky what'd you say um I was boiling hot dogs and Frying french fries and fried chicken no I I learned later on because my grandmother was Southern she was like clean them collard greens I'll cut up that and then get out my kitchen clean them chitlins and then we left um I just want to make sure I'm reading this in the right Tone If you like you're saying look I'm too shy to be showing my face even backstage I completely understand it's these trolls that have been out here and they'll they'll screenshot your icon pretend like it's you when they come backstage so that's why I'm just saying nobody else has to see your face I just have to make sure it's you well you know what lady queen what I'll do for you I'm gonna put a banner up so if you choose to come back up I would put a banner up and then I'll I'll ask you to just say something so I can make sure you're you okay hold on I'm gonna put the batteries you have to do that because that's what happened to me the other night okay oh I see you I see you you got it lady queen okay I'm glad Miss pinky yeah I'm glad you're learning you know because they will come in and you know that's what happened uh was it not not last night the other night uh the lady the person was in my chat for longest we helped her to come up uh I don't know what one of y'all there that night we have to get uh okay one second lady queen um since you're new to stream yard I don't know if you want to turn your camera back off and I'll let you back up I just don't you're up I see you just turn your camera back off because I don't think you wanted to be on camera and I don't want you to think I'm not letting you up I just don't want to put you out there in public and you weren't trying to have your camera still on hold on y'all I'ma let her up so I can hear her we can't see you lady queen I got my banner up so nobody can see you hold on one second okay okay I don't want to put you out there in public anymore turn me off on one device that's not streaming okay can you hear me hello turn turn YouTube off keep stream yard up can you hear me okay okay hold up okay wait let me let me get it off okay okay let me let me uh connect to this let me okay y'all it's okay look we all struggle with stream y'all crazy it's a learning curve yeah it is it really is okay um uh one more second lady queen if you hear this once you come up on stream yard drop YouTube because the delay is coming from the YouTube side and it's doubling up the sound right okay all right okay sorry pinky go ahead oh that's okay uh Linda gamble said she was uh in uh she was uh in my chat that uh when that happened let me find what Linda said Linda said she was okay yeah she said I was in the chat pinky yeah that person just you got fools when I say fools they they like a complete food yeah and and they just ruin your whole thing and they don't realize how much effort and time you put into this and then um and I think that uh that lady must have screenshot because the lady was up on my panel for a while and and then she she said she was leaving and she left and it was uh I think it was Jazzy it was a couple of us up there right wow and even miss black Titanic was up there um and I forgot who else but anyway she said she was leaving and we all just we're still having a party going on right and for some reason she popped back up you know how when they pop back up and want to come back up yeah and I said her name I actually said her name just like uh just like I'll say pick it up housewife you back and I said that like that and I clicked on her she came back up same um little Avatar or whatever it was right yep and soon as she uh came back up it didn't take but a second all I could see and this wasn't a picture this time yeah it wasn't a picture it was uh it it just made me uh I I wasn't myself boy the first time she came up was she she was okay the first time yeah but actually uh I should have known something was wrong because when she first came up she said something about Melanie oh and and I didn't oh I think yeah I said I'm a millimeter uh ten toes deep or uh all the way uh all the way or something I said as soon as I said that she changed and started talking about swimming and everything yeah I was actually in that life too you worked in that life yeah and then she came back up because she said she wanted to explain what what I remember she wanted to explain what she actually meant she's I don't know what you're talking about she said she wasn't a millimeter but um you know but she liked mail but basically to me she was saying the same thing kind of like what Carson's been saying like what we need to give other people a try and you know just little things like that but I was I was on there yes yeah and I should have slipped to my gut when uh when she said that as soon as she opened her mouth and I and but I I said wait now that's when I told her I'm a metal meter uh and then she changed her tune yeah it's like I should have listened to my gut but she stayed on there for a while and then when she did come back that's when all the can I tell you this pinky even though she was probably a troll for the the melody tart troll somebody body still probably spoofed her image to come back up I don't think that's what I think person yeah because they spoofed live laugh love on me that's how I was just like oh live Buffalo get her and then it wasn't right and that's what everybody asked me why did I let I said that was and I kept talking I said that was Tammy first name it was Tammy something I said that was Tammy because that's just when we copied somebody's thumbnail who they think you'll let up I guess right and they and I said remember I said the name I said her name and it's like yeah girl I tell you and then I feel like I was there when the first time it happened to you and then I I got comfortable even though I just saw it happen to you I got comfortable like two three days later it happened to me I said all right I gotta do better I mean it's been it's like this week today is Friday so I'm like I can't go a day I said can I get at least one day or somebody not acting up I was trying to Warren black Titanic as long as she recognizes most of our icons right they want that to happen to her because you get so frazzled in the moment and they're you know they're showing it throws you all explicit images or video in that case okay yeah it wasn't even an image a person I was watching you that time I like the way everyone handled her oh okay lady queen said she was watching uh you pinky and you like she like the way everybody handled her yeah thank you lady queen where's lady oh right there okay I was just missing uh with uh messing with this I had to learn how to use it um I want to make sure everyone could see me I was watching you that time I like the way everyone handed her oh okay thank you lady queen lady queen you're you're 99 there just so you know on stream yard you just have to close YouTube and tap that camera icon to turn your camera back off because if you don't want to stay on camera but you're really close I promise you but we all have gone through this I promise you we all go through this with stream yard when we're first getting used to it so do not feel anyway yeah yeah 41 food uh 41 if you want them to get a hobby yeah time it's just evil mean that's just ridiculous yeah yeah they need to go lay on somebody's couch with money you're right thanks take a a coleslaw might tell all of them they all need time to lay on the couch some agreements um and y'all I saw because I sure am gonna watch I put in my watch later so I won't forget either brown skin girl or drop the mic release the video that said uh what would you call them chirp chirp is back that's how she said it you know coleslaw basically she said chirp chirp is back I put it in my watch later let me see here was who I dropped the mic drop the mic drop the mic okay that's what it said classy back right 41 feet oh oh 41 feet you just reminded me did y'all see the not a good apology in my opinion but the apology is funky Donita did yeah Chloe to Chloe and then it was it was on the plainest James Channel I was watching Layla Lynn and Layla Lynn said that's what she's gonna watch it and react to it but he can't even Round Up Layla Lynn she was saying I'm so unbiased I come to report I rarely offer my opinion but she was like I'm tired of it and so Layla actually offered her opinion on it and I was like to get Layla to do it because she does just report for the most part um but yeah the plaintiff Jane has funky Don Divas I'm air quoting apology and then uh reaction to the apology and everything in case y'all thank you you're welcome well we're talking I'm surprised he did oh go ahead Ladonna I'm surprised he apologized apologize Ladon he he pretty much made it clear he still felt how he felt in my opinion so why apologize then he kind of said I'm not really apologizing he said I went too far something he said you got to see it Ladon let me get her Channel hello I'm gonna drop it it probably was the network and he said the network uh made him do it that's what I was thinking um that's not an apology I should say he addressed what he was forced to address because it really wasn't an apology it wasn't it was so sorry I'm not sorry yeah basically okay I give those because I give those all the time so I know what it sounds like I just saw a mill walk in Paris Fashion Week okay I got some videos saved I got them queued up so star but 4150 said the plain as Jane I love the excuse me the plainish Jane commentary he didn't apologize for Don yep and I just I didn't know about myself I did subscribe because I was like look like she comments on a lot of stuff I'm interested in his hand was forced yes and she said she can't say too much but her inside knowledge was um oh how did she worded 41 fit that she knows genuinely he I guess doesn't feel remorse and he wouldn't have done it if he wasn't about to like lose something I guess maybe lose his job or be suspended or something now CDW his apology May finally be posted to Foxhole at the time it wasn't even on Fox sold yet except if you're watching it live they hadn't posted the segment as a result oh okay I would still fire him you know why I have to know why uh air quote apology I think he might still be exciting consequences because this is because no way yeah written something I mean he should have just written and not mentioned that he had to do it for his company because exactly you're like saying kiss my butt that's why I would still fire him because you're still acting like a b-hole and then another thing too it really put like I'm sorry I can't take when ugly people call other ugly people ugly I can't I'm sorry like he'd be sitting up there talking about people and the way that they look like he is like um Al B Sure back in the days or something [Music] like boy you don't need to be calling nobody ugly you got a nerve like your stuff don't stink make me sick no it was bad and it seemed like it's it's man it sounds like it was giving my mama you know yeah and if you will probably call somebody and say you need to take that back about my little sis now and if you really want to get down to it right um I agree with that [ __ ] I think Beyonce got involved with that one but my thing about it too is I'm kind of sick of um um you know because I was on you know I was watching somebody's live the other day that was talking about the situation and some people that went up there were saying basically that's what he does and they're tired of women um getting mad at the gay man when he say something about um women but women can say it to each other you know that's right that's right men can say whatever they want the men and women can say what they want the women but just because you um don't consider yourself a full man or whatever don't mean you get to talk slick out your mouth to a woman mm-hmm period period so when they try to put that up there if I call Shannon to be and she called me and be y'all call each other B so why can't excuse me because I have that relationship you know like even if I really have that relationship we're even playing field you are not uh even playing so you're still a man I don't care if you want to flick your wrist on none of that still a man I'm sorry it just really pisses me offense it's like yes I okay so oh hi oh gosh you know what um let me stay in my Lane I'll drop the link to the video y'all can go watch the video because I only want to mess up and accidentally paraphrase it the wrong way right drop the link I will say one thing about it that I think most people will agree with it's not so much as what he said and who he said it to it's more of the fact that we're tired of him saying it because I can't remember when I've seen him go hard like that for a man like exactly it's always women every time you see him going it's a one right and it's like okay that's like a man constantly harassing you and berating you and it's like okay well have that same energy for the men yeah it's not about oh this what he do no because even on Love and Hip Hop when he came who did he come for he came for the women right he didn't have that same energy for Scrappy he didn't have that same energy for what's his rat face y'all can't think of his name oh JJ he didn't have that same energy for the men he was coming for the women like quit coming for the woman you are at the end of the day regardless of what whatever you still a man and come for the men like people be an equal opportunity dragger yeah bragging women just being equal thank you and you said it better yes that's it that's not what we asking for it why ain't nobody else talking about Martel and and after women and what he says and that's true I haven't seen Maurice and Marcel or Martel get drugged from only us only yeah they got on a girl or something I know it's been out there that had an aunt or a mother with the Big C that they felt and um you know um they got you know sell away about um Maurice's statement yeah well his wife but no man stood up and said anything you didn't drag him all this girl did was walk on the stage look in the way she felt like she wanted to look and you had to go all in Dallas because he can't do it that's what I was getting he's jealous of women it was something because that was it just and it was it seemed so ferocious and like personally it was more and you know we've seen him just before but it seemed like that right there was just like he was ready set go and it like it was like he was ready like and he didn't even talk about Haley he took it to Chloe and it's like what's on my Hallie here Haley hadn't or whatever he did because y'all Hallie has turned into a little gangster for Chloe because most of the time people come for Chloe not Hallie and how they be like you better leave my sister alone like she had a face you know like that's just what they do for each other that's sisters standing up for a sister like that's all it is that was already and even Claudia asked him where did it come from and you know there was no did you see Claudia's face though Claudia was sitting there like yeah did you see when he charged up to talk about Chloe I didn't re-watch that moment so many times yep I was like oh he was ready ready and I think Claudia noticed that and I believe she said something to him because a couple times she didn't she'll hold back but you can tell that it's Claudia we know when Claudia ready to pop off yeah so she was ready to pop off but she like I'll just hold it because you know I I don't want to make this a moment but even hell y'all know Al was even trying to be politically correct and everything up there and I'm like ouch I was co-signing after a while to me I but I understand what Al was saying though I get it because we said all the time about reality stars we say okay if you gonna be out here you gonna do this don't play in our face that's what Al was saying Al's whole thing is allowing people to play in people's face and he be playing in people's face so I just don't understand all right but we know that but he started off first as he started off reasonable before funky night he would win but then he was like okay well she playing that's what I take it as I take it as cause I my oh we could just say use me as an example I'm a married woman I do not like coleslaw cannot stand that woman but if I'm saying something remotely instantly nice about her or anything somebody takes it as a nice statement about her because it ain't nothing really nice to say about the woman right if you say anything that sounds like you're giving an inch or you're you're feeling a different type of way about anything including their the child people take that and run with it and say oh you you trying to look out for her you want her to be successful and autism I don't know her enough to want that for her but I'm just saying what I'm saying because this is how I feel was placed on my heart at that moment that's why I said a lot of times I do move in silence because yeah a lot of times what's placed on your heart somebody else is not placed on theirs at that moment so they can't handle it and they're gonna blow up on you like it's your fault or whatever the case may be yeah and then when you try to explain it regardless of what you say what you saying is gonna be not right it's gonna always be twisted into something else that you're not meaning it to say and every time you start talking they just gonna take that beginning part and not let you finish your conclusion yeah yeah because it's true I hate that but I just like that by the way that Rouse me so much ADR yeah we're talking about Al Star Jones's ex-husband yeah and you know it's about him anyway yeah you know Al he he ran game on Stars so you know we we already know how Al you can't hear talking about playing in her playing her her plan and her face and all that because you did it for a long while there sir but you know what I'm saying he was trying to be pretty much politically correct because at any moment the people can stop watching y'all like y'all and I I will say that is I appreciate I saw some content creators that identify um I don't okay they are gay black male content creators that's not their only identity just part of it but I'm just saying I saw some that did say that they did not agree with funky Don Neva before a lot of the backlash came so it's not like jumping on the bandwagon after the fact they're just like no this is not this is not right you know so I do appreciate seeing that you know right I I been having to say it's not right right really she did nothing wrong and that shirt thing she had on and I'm a big girl and that shirt thing she had on that would make anybody I don't like those because they make anybody most women wear the most loud or pregnant so I don't like those because they too flowy and you do look impregnated in them and or really big gir if you're a big girl so it's not a flattering thing like it's not a very flattering outfit and it was cute on it and the little girls wear it all the time for Easter we are and we ought to have that coat as a little girl for Easter show me a girl that they had that coat yeah as a little girl for Easter so if we I don't like them but that's why I don't like them because it does nothing for your shape you know and the fact that he just got so mad about the picture she dropped is like why and I I made that point and I'm glad that that uh I like I think it was Layla Lynn the way that she stated it she said technically technically Hallie didn't say she was or was not pregnant she dropped pictures to say look at our you know here's some stuff from the backstage thing here's me and my sister out but she it's not even like she was like I'm not pregnant I am pregnant and it wouldn't matter either way but like the way he was mad about it was as if she really did say something and she's like she denied yeah okay that was out of character was he was like well I could understand if she was because she's trying to protect her Disney career and I was shocked because you know that's not usually Al's position trying to take nobody he tried I think funky just turned them yeah I think so too I think he got swayed he did try a little bit um well possibly he got swayed I I don't know I I didn't watch it so if you work for Disney you can't have kids yeah I don't think that's just so stupid you know how many people that got families that work for Disney to say something like today that's stupid right I mean a lot of people just don't want to uh at the earlier they don't want to let people know because you know let me tell you the other main thing that they kept bringing up is she looks cringy and her outfit she's too sexy but she got that baby face listen yes we remember them as little girls but they grow up exactly they grow up we can't keep them in that frame because that's where we we still see them they ain't those little Disney stars no more they're grown women right child stars that happens a lot and why they don't transition good after they become adults because people can't unsee them as a kid yeah no they was trying to come at her too but she did like them Kiki's I believe Kiki's thing is her mom doesn't feed into that because it seemed like her mom has her back okay and she's stronger-minded too right yeah but they they just it's sad because you didn't see them doing that to Miley Cyrus when she got up there and got okay oh yeah she had to uh get her name trademark or rename she just it she had to fight yes yes yes exactly why she looks like she looked now because she couldn't take it yeah yeah no they did they did um I can't remember what I was watching but what I was I thought that was only after she came back humping on the things [Laughter] they had they had owned her actual name or something crazy it was it was bad they she was uh restricted she was very much like they be holding on to them the mostly girls it seemed like you know yeah yeah Justin Timberlake had no problems okay yup Raven Simone too yeah they just have a thing for uh trying to hold and take things from the uh women if men they don't do that too absolutely we still have to fight no matter where we are we still have to fight the man that we be treated the same we're we're given respect and we're not gonna take it no more yep you're right pinky the more voices the better yep yeah Miss Spanky yep because they they try to just think women have no power they always think you know this is the man's world we we need to uh they still trying to control us just like the um on all these casts shows uh uh from Love and Marriage Huntsville everything they the men still trying to control the women if you right don't realize that that's all and it's controlled by CK and he's still controlling all the men on the show to keep their Gathering to keep their wife in line if I drop my internet did it like a blip so if I drop I'm coming back just so y'all know it goes okay okay yeah yeah but that's but that's what they do to us miss Pinky and that's why I think so many people are upraged about what funky did because he has a wider audience on on Fox so you were just on your little YouTube Oh not little but if you just on your YouTube channel doing what you do fine but you're on Fox so everybody he was on a public platform you know a large platform and right so at that just it's it's like come on now right right you got so many women uh female uh that a lot of people uh listeners are female majority of them are female and you're talking like that and you're criticizing a young girl like that you need you and that apology is nothing but a saint because that apology is not a real apology that's why I would still fire him yeah because you still don't get it you're still polluting included if you don't get it if you get it you won't keep doing the same same thing and getting in the same situation and this is all the time for him yeah yeah and a lot of people a lot of the other men um that are doing YouTube are saying basically oh well he's the reason why I started my channel so therefore I'm gonna Overlook some things because he has laid the platform and he's done so much I don't care about none of that I'm talking about right here today what has he he started it but what did he do with it and look how he's treating it right yeah he needs to be out of here he is one of the people there's a million people in this world that that's a problem like Trump okay that that caused that that contribute to the problems in the world that we're trying to fix funky Don Eva in my opinion is a direct he's one of those type of people that causes problems that we're trying to fix he's not a part of the solution he is the problem yeah he's one of the problems Point Blank period nothing he does is funny nothing he does is cute when he's talking and the way he talks I don't care if it's who it's about it's always in the nasty tone always in the negative he's like a negative uh negative Norbit or something I don't know just can't stand his own ugly corrodite looking self he looked like he got the monster he needs to shut up sick of him in the other ones and if they did call me CIS woman it's gonna really be a problem girl I'm sick of it they think because they're like that they can say what they want to say about us women Point Blank period that's what it boils down to you are gay and you think because you're in that Middle Lane you have a right to say who you what you want or whoever you want the way you want without any regards to anybody's feelings or anybody that's watching his feelings hey Gloria certain ones do seem that that's what they think and I I don't agree with that ones that are hi Gloria are you doing today I'm not saying he's the only one there's a couple there's not all of them but there is like I can say five [Music] [Laughter] [Music] below probably he did and him and um that him and Claudia got into it before remember when he got suspended This was um this was around was it the beginning of the year or was it last year I was that's what I was going on sherelle's world what was happening that he said something Claudia must have been going through something with somebody I forget who it was hmm who was it was it the guy she was dating because her and that guy was going it could have been there but a nice show right it could have been that but he said he said some real nasty stuff to Claudia and he was suspended for like a week or a couple days yes he was oh my God yes he was let me ask you a question uh he called Chloe uh that she was overweight and ugly yes the nerve for him let me ask you about yourself yet he said he got a nerve to talk about somebody ugly beautiful girl both of them are beautiful and he is one of the let me just be quiet okay even if it wasn't in his even to some people they might not be the most beautiful girls but let me tell you something guess what they're not fugly and he is great they look like a gross under somebody's a okay okay look I'm waiting for my re-up man he ain't here yet I need my peace pipe it's illegal absolutely wearing masks baby nice nice because these are some beautiful uh young women and I you don't do that to young women especially when they're in in this type of Industry because that that would make them uh shut down that would make them feel uh uh like something is wrong with them they're not prettier that's what I went through yes that's what he wants because he hate women when he see beautiful women like this young women of beautiful women women he got to tear them down because they're too you know there's nothing wrong with them so I got to find something wrong with him I got to make them think you're ugly or something but there's a lot of challenges for these young girls out here especially in the industry trying to be perfect trying to you know look perfect try to this that this that and you got people like that that really make you feel like you're not good enough no matter what we I looked in the mirror a million times people could have used to tell me I was pretty pretty look at that long beautiful hair I did not feel it I don't care how many people told me I was pretty I did not feel it so imagine those type of people who the microscope is on all the time right and I I'm just complex complex about this food because I'm not talking about this young lady one second y'all I keep forgetting I put myself on mute succeed can you flip your camera on and off real fast I just have to make sure someone's not spoofing your icon well I've seen her saying that was me that's that's why I was wondering this is the first time I was wondering it was me I'm like okay Claudia gives him a run for his money I know so yeah Life by herself poor thing do you know I did not know that was for Al Reynolds that was actually I recently a couple months ago found out that that was the owl that was married to Star Jones yes I did not know that was it yeah I remember yeah um I don't watch them a lot just here and there when it's something I really don't want to know about but yeah because of him can you flip your camera on real fast uh I have to make sure someone's not spoofing your uh your icon and I won't show you I'm not gonna put you up with the camera on oh that's the scene trying to come up high succeeding okay I got you succeed thank you thank you thank you I'll wait I'm not gonna put you up till I see your camera go off now I want you to explain that how do they do that they they take a snapshot of the police yeah it's that simple you can really use your snipping well I don't want to be describing the how I guess but um I see you succeed I'm just wait I didn't know if you want to keep your camera okay I see I'm putting you up now that's scary yeah they just take the image and because you can choose any image you want to when you come up on stream yards so you just take the image that you took from somebody else you saw in the chat and then that's your avatar so it looks like it's that person and then unless we're doing our due diligence now they're up there and it's oh it just sucks I'm so sorry pinky because I feel your pain pinky yeah hey we have a um we have a new member trending um nappy snap hey thank you for becoming a trendy tribe remember Gloria and Gloria I'm drawing Nubian theme Nubian TV theme lips tomorrow for sketchy Saturday I drive sketch live um and we just gossip while I sketch y'all so hopefully you'll make it everything is usually the same time so 6 p.m Eastern Standard time tomorrow thank you Gloria and if you like Judge Mathis a couple's Court we got to watch alone coming up too yeah thank you thank you I appreciate it oh I had that I was washing my hair yeah what now y'all know I told y'all I honestly was only going in a couple of channels anyway you did I really only you know watch the financial stuff because they don't have no mess you know it just don't be no mess no yeah I mean well except the scams well yeah but those don't be that tight that I you know I got you yeah yeah I like that type that thing yeah yeah so I'm glad to see you up succeeding thank you thank you yeah I had yeah I'm so sorry y'all I was washing my hair and I just was like oh my gosh let me and I'm deep it's deep conditioning night so it takes a while okay I know that night Lord I feel your pain you so hard how do you feel succeeding too because I know you told me that yeah how you feeling I feel better look at y'all I I was organizing my closet and some stuff came tumbling down on me oh wow yeah dissolvable stitches yeah oh for the side mm-hmm it's almost like where my boy streaks nowhere no I haven't even got to talk about um Atlanta with nobody oh my God go ahead what you got for Atlanta okay yeah did you see the Kenya interview that's what I want to know I did see the Kenya interview sorry Trinity but go ahead succeed you know what so okay so I said you know what I told someone I forgot to tell you trendy Okay so you know I like people that take accountability and trending in that we're people that pride ourselves on saying you know what we were wrong yes yes okay so trending I said this to someone I was gospeling about you okay and the gospel my definition is to tell one what I said that I said about them it's only gospel so okay tell you I was talking about you I said I gotta tell trendy okay can you make me um like a little more oh my gosh I know that don't mean you just all the way over here but I'll take it I'm okay that's okay she's she's um what's what's not twirling not quite twirling she's team twist she's okay she's right in the middle of me you know what okay I'm Moon walking twerking and and you know doing the old school Cabbage Patch okay out loud there's the part of me funny kind of like okay am I listening to Nene because I'm sorry some of these things I'm hearing you sound like if I didn't have the voice I would think I was listening to Nene okay so that's the shade part okay okay okay then the other part that was kind of like it made me think that she had talked to Bethany because see when you're talking to someone yeah as all of us in corporate know you have to document it yeah so part of that documentation is that a hundred thousand people saw me say that x y z Oh yes yes you went on the record correct yeah so that's just my you know I'm very you know I tell everyone I analyze a cup of water so that's what I was thinking she was like let's get these things on the record list yes yes yes well rehearsed yeah I give you that I got I got all my points that's why they had to break it down so that they could get them all I I agree and so yeah so I did have some you know some you know she did make me kind of okay so then this is the other part so you know I know everyone's going hard on her mom that is horrible that happened to her but I guess the my part that I'm thinking about is you showed up with a camera crew how much were you trying to resolve with a camera with that specific moment I don't know but I do feel like in those private moments that's where I look at the moment yeah just like when Ashley went to confront her dad he was not opening that door don't play with me so when I when I think of that and that is the time that people got mad at her Aunt Lori Aunt Laurie knows that her mom obviously has some type of issue yeah yeah and so you know I you know I know she doesn't feel that they should protect mom but how much can you hold someone accountable that has that type of issue and that's her sibling too you know especially if you know before King was born of course if there are siblings Aunt Lori probably being protecting her you know looking after her soul you know prior you know what I'm saying so [Music] um siblings kind of like what Ladon was saying about her aunt and uncle yeah yeah and I think that any sibling like if you know that you have a sibling that's sick let's say they have sickle cell let's say when you watch people that have siblings that have some type of whether it's autism they really work hard to protect them yeah yeah that's what I saw now everyone else saw oh how dare her aunt say that we know the camera's cut so they're not going to show everything that you're obviously I told her not to go her dad told her not to go they both knew the outcome of that and to take a camera crew could take someone like that in a whole nother Place yeah she needed a storyline her being mad on both her sister's behalf and her niece King's behalf because she didn't want to re-hurt herself correct he already knew how her sister could be affected I think she really was just she told her that too yeah she she shared that with her you know but you know what that's kind of what turned me with Kenya anyway because you're even though I understand that she was trying to get her mother's attention you're forcing it like yeah that reminds me of how some women try to force men to be fathers yeah you can't force that on your child because at the end of the day you're gonna hurt the child or you and the process of trying to force somebody to do something that they don't want to do so I and now that I hear all the ways she tried before that I'm like you already knew what was correct storyline that's what I don't like about this you played on the emotions of people for a storyline because doing the same thing over and over getting and expecting a different result instead definition of insanity I'm re-picturing that moment look I'm still over here y'all and I'm I mean thank you I will say I feel bad for her but I feel like she set herself up for that because your mom is and see the problem with that is and that's where I live a lot and people totally don't agree with it is there's something wrong with her mom we already know this because there has to be because ain't no way nobody taking my kids nowhere and I ain't gonna have nothing to do with them at no point no it's just say it's not gonna happen because my daughter now she my my kids now be like sometimes they be like you just call me okay I was calling back now what you better answer you know hey Miss Hannah so it's like there has to be something wrong with her because most women even those that don't have children tend to be a little caring towards others tend to be known always and that's why I say it has to be something wrong with her to do what she has done for so long because even those mothers that we consider not to be good mothers have their what looks like they care moments but it's just they don't they they really trying to whatever the case may be but we see something you know because it's always I want my child I want my child but you ain't take care of them right and then there has to be something where I as a mother from day one I don't get it because her mother said she never had a child so even those statements to argue I never had a child I never had a child tells you that there's something wrong right yeah took the camera crew there to put her mother on blast right not in order to have any type of talking moment because she knew what the result was going to be she wanted her mother to be embarrassed exactly that part better I think she wanted her and honestly I can say this part because as somebody whose parents weren't always present I think she wanted them to feel she wanted her to feel what she felt and I could say that because at times I felt that way with my parents when they tried to reach out and I'm like I don't feel like being bothered and you did what you did I do what I do so it's just that that that's sometimes that's that's a natural feeling but sometimes you have to fight that natural feeling too because just because it's a natural feeling doesn't mean like it's right that's true yeah that was payback for her but my thing Shannon is too though and yes in like our situation and Kenya's is too different because our parents was on drugs her parents her mother is mentally well allegedly yes you know that's two totally different things yeah yeah if you want a glass of crackhead mama and run in the crack house with the cameras and put her on blast okay but when somebody is mentally ill they are not yeah because remember that's when she first got there and like she said you know they weren't paying her initially and they were just kind of trying to do their thing and you know and how she said people always came for her it's funny because that's the same thing she did to Nene when she first got there exactly but and that's what Courtney's did Courtney just did to Candy she came for her you know what I'm saying I think her Courtney out I don't know what court what you're not doing that's the way that's the way I think that's the way it generally is with these Housewives shows and even with Married to Medicine everybody came from Mariah remember they oh my God I think the producers children to do that can I ask this and succeeding I was really for you but for everybody I want to make sure you do did you notice uh when Kenya said to Carlos yes they were it's about Marla she said it's a shame when they show favoritism on how they keep certain things out yeah Carlos are you listening no and that went right over his head sorry he didn't care what she said this is not for Carlos it's not a message to Carlos I am on the record by saying I stated in the interview it is documented that I have said this I know I'm saying it's so funny how it applies to him did you love her from Carlos doesn't care I don't think Carlos you know when he says he doesn't care what anybody thinks him and Dr Heavenly to me are the same person in some ways I can see that Gigi elaborate please Gigi what part don't you agree with because I want to know um succeed and I want to say also with the legal tactics I also think um you're right about her probably talking to Bethany or on in whomever else because that was something to me maybe like a little warning to Bravo or a big warning to Bravo because she already stated that her scenes had been cut right she don't know if she's coming back next season all right and right exactly and think about this if Bravo lets her go they put a spotlight on themselves exactly I think that was I I kind of agree with y'all too because I think that I think the whole interview was kind of like that was her warning shot like yeah no you know I know where the bones has been right she's putting it on record and and you know what and I do think you know it is sad and and you and she felt like candy now she is kind of feeling kind of sideways about candy it's kind of like I like you but I'm looking you know how Kenya okay I would be Shady now I love the way she wear her little eyeshadow you know but yeah she has the prettiest smile when she wears it exactly the same that little slant so you know how she be doing a little side look yeah she's looking at Candy like that now uh-oh because she's saying okay now your show is less than favorable I'll use that word to describe it okay your show is less than favorable it's nothing positive it had low ratings and they give you C's they give you opportunity after opportunity of nothing that ever goes absolutely anywhere so it's not like they could say oh well we did great with this and you're tap dancing they said your show was canceled and mass suddenly I pitched an opportunity absolutely is not you know they tell me no mine is boring my classy show and you know how Kenny is about class yeah your trash hey and you know that's how King you would say it and you are you have an opportunity and then candy you want to say that you're a team player did you say you're a team player she actually said this on Sunday I am a team player and I said you who what pronoun is she referring to she has a huge home with two parts with the whole other side with the seat I see you Jazzy they're just showing a bed they're not showing the dresser the chest you know the jacuzzi nothing else not the closets and yeah you succeeded did you notice in that scene with Brooklyn they didn't even show the whole room they just show right there on them right and I was wondering what that was all about because we know why they should shoot the Marshall and t-shirt scenes like that because the roommates but with candy why did you have to have them in your bed your bed could have been you could have brought a bed and had it in your driveway had it draped around it and no one would have ever known the difference okay you got to fill me in because I haven't been catching up on the actual episode so having Drew to film that scene for her movie in her own bed oh that's weird so that kind of creeps and then she was kind of looking at Todd if you notice Todd is very excited about Drew he says she's a real actress not certainly candy has a problem with her why is it every time somebody does a movie that's what she did with Porsha why does she suddenly have a problem with anyone that has that suddenly Todd says okay hold on hold on now see no because Drew is doing a lot outside of that Drew got her own thing yeah upset with you about oh yeah but I'm talking about the way she was looking at her and she said Todd probably with Lana she made some kind of oh God yeah that's why I think he did it the warm up hey we will not have that we will not happening wait wait yeah you're not laying in my bed listening I do like candy though I'm not gonna lie I like candy but she ain't no team player let's keep it real quick I'm gonna sit over here in my corner while y'all go ahead have yours with me this bedroom candy so this is the other thing that bothered me sensual bedroom candies I got a question for you trendy you do not find it weird that they decided to do the sex scene from their movie in their bedroom when they have all those no that separate question I find weird yes I do I find that weird yeah okay I don't know so then I have some other questions that inquiring minds with thinking about yeah well I need to get my notepad I want you to ask some of these questions when you I want to know why where Sheree's mother was okay why wasn't she at the Sip and sea everybody been asking that question where was it okay and okay so then I looked at her sister they showed her sister why wasn't her sister in the picture because um Martel in the picture because she thought I said that was Bob's girlfriend that's the second part I would go to but I'm saying her sister her own the lies the lies the laws sister in the picture and then did you all see her sister it was only going to be the parents and the children you know right but once she pulled him in she might as well have pulled her to no that wasn't even playing field ma'am she was trying to make sure that she was represented my man live laugh love you you need to tell me you believe now you live laugh love my darling and I watch all your stuff man you mean to tell me you believe that charade didn't know about that baby with the pea brain we have to see if it's a bird brain not with our regular brains guys oh my God this is she said her name so this is a liar she said her name maybe she went over to the I just want to say one thing succeeded just one thing like if this was my daughter right she walk in the house she just found out her daddy got a kid before her before me all that you know the first thing my daughter when she hit that door before she even get in the threshold good is gonna say mommy did you know he had another kid now I don't know if it was true or not but we can't think like that you gotta think from you know what she said to the ladies that said she knew Bob introduced me to Candace how you know her name is Candace yeah right [Music] um it could be editing but however he probably introduced her away and setting up a scene you know so going after her track record but you should have saw the faces of her children uh right that that baby and her son Sheree didn't care about nobody but well what she wanted what looks good for her because can I say something about that picture first of all this picture was supposed to be a family picture right yeah so memories for your grandchildren yeah you know that you were a hoteler in the arrangement right why would you pull him in that picture you willing to go that far with that line do you know why she's working to go that far away going setting up Tyrone with that scene knowing that man told her he was not going to be the I don't put nothing past you so do you know why she did it with Bob because she's still checking for Bob Bob to um she felt like she lost the Bob so she's forever trying to win again competition with him yeah because she saw him do it with someone and she said oh so I grabbed my tail to her that was again it was not thought out it wasn't thought about no oh yeah this is gonna become a magazine it was about I have to one up Bob yeah and that's what I was saying that we can't think the ray got a bird brain but this man is gonna be in that child's picture in that father in that yes you see how that yeah just look at him he matches why he matched them if he if she didn't plan on having him in there because that's what Damita Joe said and I agree why he matching she knew what she was doing is gonna be in lock up one day and she gonna have this this food this woman is just making me sick I agreement well she got she got experience so she'll write them she'll put some money on this book she do have experience you do time with a dude real good yeah she she'll take care of them and this is the other thing why does she do that same walk every time she comes in um whatever she did for that divorce party it's like charade isn't this for the baby right she came walking in that session in there she should have been standing to the side and let the uh son been in the middle parents pushed that baby through it was all about her stank butt I hate to see that I agree and this picture looks the funk dysfunctional everybody's eyes is different ways the baby mama [Applause] wait a minute who is this girl right here with the flower dresses no I thought charae's daughter was the one next to Sheree has two daughters oh she got two daughters you know the one I talked about they don't tell nobody about her kids yes she did you remember she had her hit and she was on the scene with the white when Dwight was planning her fashion show with no clothes right there she never introduced us to her daughter or her mother in that panel has she never introduced us she didn't introduce nobody and then she introduced her to us because remember the daughter had graduated from college she had got a job and she was trying to help the fiance pick out this ten thousand twenty thousand dollar ring that she knew he was working at a Exterminating place and she knew he couldn't afford to buy that ring right he is just lost in the head yeah yeah that's Sheree's daughter yeah that's her whole story I didn't know that I didn't know she had another one that she's hugged up next to is her oldest daughter yeah go back down the one next to it with the flower dress we all don't find a strange Church all this time nobody knew who know her kids oh yeah everybody introduce them or talk about him that was something no she didn't because she was embarrassed because see people always talk thinking about they know all this stuff about Sharay and Sheree has never talked about being a teen mother or thing for a living but that's just my opinion yeah I agree okay so okay I have another question for y'all why was Sonya since she just sang ya since she just met Bob one time why was she so interested in his situation well she made no Bob from the NFL her husband played in the NFL so they made it different time you know that man 50 years older than him she was very clear she said Bob one other time I thought Sonya wasn't training to be the next bone carrier so that's what I mean I could see that she's messy she yeah and Courtney is real messy um but saying it has been going around this season being messy anyway like yeah and everybody's stuff like she ain't nobody praying for any season and that's why yeah she just been all over the place this season she's talking about everybody she's saying you know she trying to keep her she win Miller for that job because they know that something about to happen because this this is right now she the new Tiffany and the new Cynthia yeah well she's a Cynthia she's trying to be the new Cynthia and I have a couple more questions that I want to y'all to get to tell me okay before you ask y'all I gotta wrap up cause Okay as we know take care of Home 41 feet already left to go take care of homework I got about what 10 minutes before I gotta take care of my questions might be quick I'm gonna get ready to go because I got to go anyway I needed to go by eight so I'm gonna go ahead and drop down but okay okay I say and answer your question you know I will okay so I wanna get back to me y'all can I want to know when Sheree said now listen to this her exact words was it's Bob's first grandchild and I am so glad [Music] because remember she's still checking for Bob right so she's like her baby is gonna bring her and Bob I'm so glad where they have to do things together so glad it's Bob's first grand baby exact words grand baby and I am so glad she did say that maybe her kids finally get to be the first to something I don't know okay yeah well her kids are gonna be yeah definitely yeah and so out of all the kids he got she gave him one of her offsprings out first she and you see how she looks at Bob she looks she's like one she keeps us you want to stay in some money that's all about Whitfield yeah okay then okay my other question is okay we saw her sister her sister is not a beautiful um woman I don't know why they I would love to see her sister in scenes with her yeah as much as she talks about Drew and she's talked about NeNe her sister is not a petite person her mother is not a petite woman her don't you won't stop that shade no I get where she's going I'm sick of people talking about people yeah but you're right talks about everybody else can you correct but that's your family your daughter is not a tiara is not petite see y'all so now okay I I have not go even for this rock question y'all a shady see what I'm asking y'all right I'm sorry I wasn't even laughing at that Trinity no I was laughing I was laughing oh sorry yeah it was not you succeeding she is so silly why you put it back off so she don't want us to be Shady we got to not be Shady okay so and then why is she always pulling on her dress is that a nervous energy is she always pulling on that side that's a nervous thing because her dress don't never be riding up like this nope she does it at the reunions yeah just pull it unless one breast is higher than the other oh yes yes okay I think y'all have answered all my questions I had okay now you're off to something seceding and my last question I forgot was about Sheree's reaction to Drew and and and the Anthony situation and why does she have never have any respect for her cast members she don't she don't react she didn't react normal during this whole uh baby celebration thing she didn't act normal it was almost like she was out of body yeah oh wow but I will say one thing though I will take up for stray on this Andrew lies Drew lies yeah she does they both still and then they were talking about the situation but I kind of tuned out but for whatever happened it was like Drew wasn't telling the story right so which which with the Anthony thing yeah the Anthony thing now which part so from what Anthony said it was like a back and forth thing between you know I don't really Drew made it seems like says I don't believe anything Drew say and this is why right so it's like two Liars it's like two Liars saying so who you believe nobody that's right if the police had to be called and it's documented but with Anthony the reason I don't believe anything he said because he's we heard him say out of his own mouth that Sheree owed him money and Sharay said out of her own mouth he never worked for her and she said like she didn't even really know him well but now Martel is introduced and he hanging out at the party right but then too do y'all remember somebody asked was it one or two shoes and he said it was two right so come on now YouTube and come on like it seemed like it was more of a thing I think they was having words Shady like that yeah he he a mess he started he may have even started it I think because he walked around in the place right when he got in there right running around like he was lost cause don't you remember when he first met candy and you know he's just extra he's looking for a moment because if you remember yes he's the same guy that started the mess on Basketball Wives that started that mess that whole season right he's messy very messy and it was all a lot right it was like yeah and she got that little moment in the on the camera he's trying to make sure he go for it oh yeah he's [ __ ] outrageous so he can be seen and known and talked about yeah he definitely wants to be seen because don't you remember when candy walked in uh you you don't even know her you don't even know her no it was a lot it was it turned me off oh gosh he was it's like man can you walk straight yeah and that was the only questions I had for y'all and when I think about that and I hear Straight No Chaser and I'm just like wow I didn't listen that's kind of why I believe that's kind of why I believe him because she doesn't pay people drew she don't pay people her parents we've heard that with one person though right yeah don't pay nobody yeah we just heard that we're wonderful we only heard that but one with her but um that charade don't pay yeah she doesn't care who you are because remember Drew supposedly so the lady said had this big staff of all these people and none of them ever said that she didn't pay them right and but Drew she came there to be a chef and ended up a nanny so that that kind of caught me off guard in the first place you can't come here to cook my food and then I say hey you want to be my nanny instead right no no right but it sounded like they had a discussion about it because she said how much she said she was gonna charge her for it and then when they came up with the price when they when she said well the price was her price that her story don't even all make sense no Drew can't tell a straight story I mean Drew I mean even that other the the the chef um oh gotcha Annie even her story it was like I went to be this and then when she gave me the amount I remember to find that that filed complaint so we can go through her complaint against drugs what's his name he was trying to um figure out what that added up to and it was like he was like that wasn't no money if you have you know multiple children Rich DJ Richie was like no that's not adding up that don't that don't make sense oh wow thank you thank you thank you guys and y'all have a good night's sleep thank you okay love you guys okay bye all right returning you about to get out of here thank you all my questions we miss you with your questions yeah and then saying next time I want you to tell me why that girl had on baby blue [Music] they didn't put her up on the color scheme you you think Kenya brought her there and didn't tell her what color um like to see king of being messy like that but that's her friend remember they're trying to bring because remember candy knows her too because candy said her name because I looked her up Aquila Coleman AKA oh is that the one that's is this the friend that's been there for a couple episodes this season yeah yeah okay I remember her now yeah and so yeah so I thought that was kind of yeah like why would why didn't she yeah so I'm thinking maybe some people just like to wear a different color you think she knew and just chose a different hey we had a church banquet and the color scheme was like silver or or um like you know those types of tones yeah and I know a good friend of mine she's she's I was surprised at her she's a mature age woman she showed up in a red dress yes she did wow yeah I was wondering I was gonna say nothing y'all I had that on my list I was gonna say nothing about why her dress was red now akila's dress was red no charades dress oh charades dress oh okay okay it wasn't even fuchsia but I wasn't gonna say nothing yet so racism and Shane I want you to tell me why um Bob's oldest son wasn't there the one that's two years younger than Sheree's son when we talk again too on the show and he has another child Bob uh yes we have two kids that weren't there yeah well yeah yeah two kids exactly Cairo and the daughter latrista laniso yes they're two years apart they two years apart but oh no I'm not saying nothing um you're lower succeeding got more questions she just actually gracefully stopped asking quick I feel like you got more questions that was like four more in the chamber well I'm just I'm just locked and loaded yeah and you see live laugh love she got that notebook open so she know and she's gonna make a rattling yeah hold on [Laughter] paper oh my god when I was doing my video I was like I gotta put some music or something under this because they don't hear nothing but my favorite let me talk y'all I want y'all to tell me why Martel allegedly didn't pay his um publicist too it broke he ain't got it he pulled it he ain't got it he ain't got it Sis okay so you can pay him flirting like he paid middle probably oh okay that's my theory so do y'all did coleslaw come back since I've been gone yeah you got to go look at uh drop the mic I'm gonna go watch it too she said chirp chirp is back or something like that she said drop the mics video I wonder what can she say I know that's why I'm glad I can filter it through drop the mic because I don't want to just listen straight to her I don't I don't because now she cannot say she took nobody with her eyes open when she said he got her time trying to bring her back to the projects oh and it says is this real so I wonder if it's about I now oh I don't know if she actually came back out is this about original straight no chases video but this is the link in case y'all want to see it but yeah I'm gonna I'm gonna see what it's about I'm okay y'all tell me when y'all and when y'all have the answers to those questions that I when y'all find out a little bit more and I want y'all to tell me why Anthony and Martella friends tell me about that friendship and what's really going on with the two of them Anthony who Anthony the one that supposed Anthony the one that said he worked for Sharay Ladonna never got paid and then worked for Drew girl you know why they friends how you doing how you doing okay see I was hoping y'all would tell me what's Cynthia wear that winter coat y'all then it was pretty though succeed number it was really cute y'all out and got it all oh I was clicking I'm like what is she smoked all week so I didn't got it all out I would just want to know I got it on my little note sex and see y'all put y'alls on paper I put mine in my phone so I could search it okay and it say why Cynthia yeah we be needing our phone to search stuff so that's why we can't put it in our phone yeah and looking at my messages and stuff yes well see I'm not a content creator you all oh so you got a little bit more I got you succeeding so well this paper hasn't done me wrong yes and you can actually there's no Market out right now some of the notes real quick it's accessible I'm from the type of age I just well I I used to I started leaning towards typing but then I would need that screen back yeah yeah or I'll type it and print it out yeah that's what I did I've done that I sometimes typed and printed out some type of everything I type I I spreadsheets going on vacation I spreadsheet everything as well writing it does help you remember too though yeah yeah like taking notes in school yeah I was about to say I feel like I've been in school forever because for me it's when I'm typing it I when I'm typing it it's like oh yeah it's in my memory and then like I don't know but when I'm typing I'll type a bunch of brainstormy stuff and it'll all be it'll be a bunch and then I have to go back and put it all together so this will go up here that won't go there and it's that's easier on the computer if you type if you're writing down you'll have to go back and Link it all together first that's different Shannon I give you that one yes that's different but I may not be around the computer you know I made these things in a park you know myself on your phone because I literally have one it's not going to work you need your phone screen to do other stuff even when you have two phones yes and your iPad I want those okay we ain't in the eye family okay I want to make sure I was clear okay you are very clear yes we know how y'all sound because the our family be girls last night hope all is well just stop by classes oh I know bless you I've been thinking about you can someone tell me Sheree was on some strong juices for her to sleep with her ex oh okay oh no now blessing you know my mind be working kind of weird because I think charade's still checking for Bob which acts bless Queen B has two little oh yeah you still like Bob because she they got married in 2000 and they ended up divorced he fought divorced in 2007 and I think the only reason is because that show you figured she knew the show was coming out in 2006. that's why Bob made that comment that you dragged it out because I think she dragged it out because she needed the storyline yeah yeah even on Ayanna I haven't well I haven't watched it since it aired but yeah that kind of was what he was leading to even in there like you know her having to still be in the house right knowing different things like that and I think she thought Bob had more money as well than she didn't do her homework but I did have more money he had signed all those artists he just didn't give it she just didn't get it right Bob knew how to cook she wanted the house yeah you know because with Bob you know having that you know patchworks and signing TI and Snoop and you know Beyonce and you know all of them he you know she knew Bob that's why she likes Bob a lot because one she said he was intelligent and y'all always hear me talk about him going back to school and going to Stanford he did and his degree is in economics so Bob is definitely a very you know and I think she really does respect that I think Bob thought she was smart and I think Bob helped her um she talks the good she's you know she presents like you know what I mean after their divorce Bob went back because I say that like when I'm on a panel I'm like people talk about Bob I'm like well Bob went back to school and finished that hit Sanford where he had you know scholarship originally okay yeah okay so so I think that's one reason that she didn't get as much money as she thought she was gonna get because it was given in the game y'all because she only been living in the world in 2000 and filing for divorce and you know 2007 she was never gonna get no that was just I think her storyline no no she really thought that she would have had to be married a little bit longer probably but she don't do no research so she wouldn't have known that it went two kids she really thought she really did remember who we're talking about listen she thought you said charade blessing are you saying Sheree and Bob never seem like they was into each other no there was no chemistry there either yeah I didn't think so but now they didn't seem like it on there but now she beat hey Bob with him because she think that she is on an even playing field with him now she thinks okay now I got shut up I got sheep I know um she thinks that she like she's like you said I've arrived but she still she don't get it she really don't get it and I really realized that when I watched that Ayanna show that's when I was like she really does not get it and that's why well she's it that's why she be in the situations that she'd be in because she she doesn't think she can't think of she's not a critical thinker honey she need to come over here on the melameda team honey she can't it's too late just to make sure because I almost y'all y'all have made me have so much fun I forgot how this started so okay y'all let's take a bet take it back okay so we last statements try to give me 60 seconds or less except for we're ending on Ladon because it started with Ladon so Ladon you take the time you need okay but everybody else if you don't mind last statement 60 seconds or less so I can have Ladon give her last words of wisdom for this particular video I'll end our lives um I want to say thank you everybody okay okay y'all I want to thank all y'all for um Coming and listening to me and thank you guys who sent me cash apps I thank you I love my sisters thank you trendy for um giving me the platform and making me feel so comfortable thank you Shan for giving me encouragement and strength just thank you ladies succeed in your you know you're one of a kind girl yeah all right love you this year when I put on my put up my New England Patriot tree I'm gonna think of you God you better girl I'll send you a picture get you on the right team all right well I've been a fan since Tony Easton and that okay just Google that oh don't be saying nothing okay okay you know I'm born and raised here so you know okay I even have like seven pair of New England Patriot earrings I have about 13 shirts I have scarves I have hats wow I have a rug I have a whole tree I mean a whole tree hey I got a cousin that played for the um that well I think is the Titans so you know we'd be beefing off when they be playing like yeah the family be bugging yes all right y'all wanted to say good evening good night love you I've learned I'ma let you go next guys I know what you do and I gotta make sure I keep my time for succeeding you gonna oh no I don't have anything I asked y'all y'all gonna be getting back to me with all those questions that I asked and some of those that y'all you know have to go back and think about I understand then last thing I just want y'all to tell me if those were regular water bottles because they looked to me like they were regular water bottles and I want to know why they didn't have the baby pictures on it Godly okay okay drop down I'm going okay y'all thank you love y'all okay good night bye okay who uh either live laugh love or I don't know because I don't have much to say I just say this was fun I just have fun and I'm like I'll see you on the next one yeah thank you Stan oh my Leo sister yes ma'am well I just want to say thanks to Ladon I know she's gone and I loved her story and thank you trending for allowing us to come up that's it that's all all right I appreciate it thank you all for also making this a safe space for me as well I appreciate it's definitely a two-way street so I will see y'all again soon I'll play the music on the way out please replay it if you didn't get to hear ladon's story because that's where this this is where the live started that's what it was for and I thank you and thank you to my new trendy tribe members and the ones that are already Trinity tribe members we will have let me show one more time because we got sketchy Saturday tomorrow 6 p.m Eastern Standard Time and we'll have more art for you okay all right y'all I appreciate y'all thank you for hanging in there with me oh my gosh bless the replay it I miss you bless you but I know you got school so you might have to just do the audio part if you can but thank y'all I'll play music on the way out and see y'all soon okay all right bye thank you [Music] [Music] before we take it easy [Music] thank you [Music] thank you foreign [Music] [Music] one two three [Music] foreign [Music]