ketamine is a an MDA antagonist in the brain so essentially is a dissociative so when I got a lot of ketamine my legs are blown off I'm getting worked on I'm telling dudes how to treat me I cut my own shirt off and then I get the ketamine and I'm like in and out and I see these Visions back and forth and like I was convinced I was there are two distinct moments I was like I'm not going to make it